His Path, Daily

The Joy of Cupcakes!

2012-02-15T23:00:00.000-05:00

Those cupcakes were delicious! I remember the first time I walked into "Just Baked" with Sabina and watching her eyes light up; it was precious! Aside from cupcakes, I have always loved good food. A lot of my weight gain (that I'm thankfully almost done battling for the time being) was due to just that, enjoying good food! I was rarely a stress eater, I just truly enjoyed eating and drinking great food and having guests over for dinner!

Social gatherings have a way of taking us away from the problems of this world. For me, sitting down with a glass of wine, enjoying some great food, and laughing with friends is hard to beat. However, David speaks of an even greater joy, one that I should let myself experience more often:

"You have put more joy in my heart than they have when their grain and wine abound." (Psalm 4:7 ESV)

David had his share of ups and downs, no question. However he clearly sought his first love, and that was the Lord. I have to remind myself from time to time of the cause for joy I have in Christ. I know my path, I know where I was headed, and I know His Grace and Promise. How can a few amazing laughs compare with His promise of eternity?

We could discuss how we should honor that gift; with service to Him and others (his sheep everywhere). However at the end of the day, we're working toward an amazing finish line, one that will beat any amazing meal put before us!

I will enjoy my cupcakes, oh I will! I will enjoy good wine and amazing friends! Yet I have an even more amazing God, and through His Son, I have this abounding joy, now, and forever!

God be with you,
~Matthew

Bragging Rights

2012-02-09T16:54:00.000-05:00

Reading a familiar passage and getting a deeper understanding is as common as it is interesting and exciting; at least for me it is! However that excitement quickly changes to deepened thought that catches you off guard at times. For example, reading through the 1st chapter of Job today I was stopped in my tracks when I got to verse 8.

If you're not familiar with the story it might not be as impacting to you, but Job's character (of being a very godly and blameless man with much wealth and prosperity) was introduced. Then a council met, and God gave Satan the authority to test Job's faith (with some restrictions). You see, Satan said that if he lost the things that were close to him (family, wealth, health) that he would surely curse God and walk away. He said the only reason he still worshiped God is because he has never been tested. God didn't quite agree ...

Though in verse 8 it became very apparent apparent to me that Satan didn't come up with the idea to test Job's faith; God offered it up before Satan even asked!

And the LORD said to Satan, “Have you considered my servant Job, that there is none like him on the earth, a blameless and upright man, who fears God and turns away from evil?” (Job 1:8 ESV)

You could argue that God knew the idea (or request) would be forthcoming, but as I read that passage, it’s God who plants the seed about Job in Satan’s head. I can almost picture Job (if he was part of the council discussing this matter) responding “Doh! Don’t point that out!”. Perhaps though his character would welcome testing? Interesting thoughts.

A close friend of mine when discussing this responded that "God was bragging on Job!". Which got me thinking; would I want God bragging on me?

Satan, go ahead and test Matt, he's solid.
Satan, go ahead and take all that stuff away from him, he'll still worship Me.
Satan, go ahead and ruin his worldly possessions, you still can't shake his faith.
Satan, so long as he still breathes he will stay true to me.

Would I want God bragging on me?

I think that's the beauty of not being part of that council, I don't have to make that decision! He knows when, how, and by whom I can be tested ... and that I do trust.

In the meantime, I will continue to brag about my God!

~Matthew

Don't Blame the Cook!

2012-02-07T12:33:00.000-05:00

We as humans sure have a way with deflecting blame don't we? Through the years I have grown to learn that accepting responsibility for my actions is not only right, but also can help me grow. I'm hardly perfect, and sometimes find myself trying to avoid a finger pointed my way. I don't like to be wrong, and the bigger the issue, the more strength it takes standing up for what is right and accepting responsibility. However there are still times I find myself giving excuses for why I didn't do something the right way or behaved a certain way. Thankfully (or sadly depending on how you look at it), I can find my character all over Scripture and realize I am not alone.

So here is Adam in the garden after taking a bite of that apple, and facing judgement for it:

The man said, “The woman ... she gave me fruit of the tree, and I ate.”

Immediately deflecting blame he states that it's not my fault, it's hers! Now before you point out something, yes, I omitted a part of that Text for a reason. Read the complete verse and see that he not only blames Eve, but Someone else too:

The man said, “The woman [whom you gave to be with me], she gave me fruit of the tree, and I ate.” (Genesis 3:12 ESV)

So not only is it Eve's fault, it was also God's fault in Adam's eyes as it was God after all that created this person that deceived Adam! Who cares if their partnership was exactly what Adam was looking for (Genesis 2:23), someone has to be blamed for this!

What really struck me when I read this was how I have in the past blamed God for similar things in my life, in particular my personality. One may try to argue that personalities develop over time based on your surroundings. Well, fine, I think in some cases yes. However raising four children, and already seeing so many different personalities, I feel some of it is how we have been knit together. And it is due to this that I think that I came to this conclusion:

Our God-given personalities aren't meant to give us an excuse for our behaviors; they are given to show the variety of ways we can bring Him glory.

I have a tendency to be anxious. I clearly disagree that God makes me anxious, but I'm not so convinced that He hasn't created me in a way that is sensitive to anxiety intentionally. It is through this perceived weakness that I have clung to Him deeper, witnessed to others who experience the same struggles, and have deepened my faith because of this; and thus grown in my freedom through Christ and my joy and understanding as well. He doesn't want me to be anxious, but He has shown me through my sensitivity to anxiety how to manage it better and share that with others.

I'm not going to blame God for my struggles and say I can't conquer them because "He made me that way". What He did is give me the strength to persevere and show others that amidst my perceived weaknesses I'm still strong in Him.

My prayer is that I continue to grow from making excuses for myself, to giving credit to Him ...

GLYASDI,
~Matthew

Seeing Past My Reflection

2012-01-02T23:29:00.000-05:00

The idea that a child's behavior is a reflection of their parent is not something unheard of in society. While I have no research behind this statement, I would have to say that while there certainly are exceptions, the way we parent in my opinion does reflect in our children. Yet it can be very easy to be over critical of another parent when you see an emotional meltdown at a mall, or an ill tempered reaction by either party. So while it's not our place to judge, my point is simply that our children's reactions to reflect on us in some way; good, bad, or indifferent.

That's what I saw when reading through Luke 6:27-35 tonight. It's a very well known passage about loving our enemies; so well known that I would imagine we all can remember this even if we haven't opened our Bible since Sunday School. However, while the command is incredibly difficult in of itself, it ends with an equally strong point. After summarizing about what He commands us to do, He says:

"... and you will be sons of the Most High, for he is kind to the ungrateful and the evil."
(Luke 6:35b ESV)

I know that at times when I'm sending my children away to a sleepover, a friends house, a party, school, or something else coming up where I know they will be on their own making their own decisions, I remind them of what I expect. I don't remind them just about our rules or expected behavior, I remind them also of "why" we behave that way, and "why" these actions are expected. Do they always listen? Ha! I wouldn't be having these conversations if they did ... but we still have them.

And He wouldn't be writing these words if we didn't need the reminder either. We represent something far greater than ourselves. At the end of the day my desired reflection comes from Someone very specific, Jesus Christ; I have no universalist/unitarian beliefs. However, it's my character that is seen first by others, not my knowledge of the Word, Theology, or my support of the deity of Christ. Arming myself with information to have a gentle, loving, and open discussion about my faith is critical, but if I walk out the door acting like an idiot, mistreating my wife and kids, road raging, surfing for porn, and being short with people who are in the way of my daily agenda, my knowledge means nothing, absolutely nothing.

Which is why I'm looking forward to buffing that mirror more in 2012! Hoping to get it clean enough so I can see a little less of me, and a little more of Him. It took work for me to get my reflection out of the way in this picture so I could see past it to that beautiful smile behind! May we learn to get of the way and let His beauty shine through!

I wish you all a wonderful 2012, it's going to be a great year! Joy, tragedy, blessings, suffering, laughter, and tears will likely all be encountered, but I will take a deep breath and know that I will not encounter a single one alone. I leave you with this quote as we enter the new year:

Two lies the devil tells us:
(In a time of suffering) "This will never end"
(In a time of blessing) "This will never last"
- Steven Furtick

Reflect Him. Embrace Him.

God loves you and so do I,
~Matthew

Playing for Him

2011-12-10T21:40:00.000-05:00

In the last few days I've been through some difficult trials as well as some beautiful moments. From marriage, to parenting, to family, to friendships, to my own journey, it's been an action packed week. I've heard words of tragedy, and I've had times of complete peace. I've had some amazing times, and I've had some amazing trials. The thought of going through a week like I went through in the way I used to handle it boggles my mind.

I've tried life on own. I've tried to poke holes in the Bible, doubt the Resurrection, roll my eyes at a fairy-tale faith that some claimed as "Truth", and took care of things on my own. It worked out pretty well actually. School, career, money, friends, etc. Yet I never felt so empty. I of course didn't choose to really look at that aspect of my life (or even look like it on the outside). After all, on paper I was doing pretty good. It was those quiet times that got to me ... those times I had to myself when all the stuff I was doing was done for the night, and it was just me ... and silence. Anyway, I digress ...

Playing for Rebekah this morning was just another one of those moments where I feel His hand on me. It's impossible to explain unless you experience it yourself but I'm talking about something far beyond peace, or affirmation, or even love. To journey with the Lord in my life takes a beautiful moment, and makes it glorifying. To experience those times when I look at my wife, or child, with not eyes of a loving husband or father, but through His eyes, is life changing.

I often recall how my body is a Temple of the Holy Spirit (when meditating on what that means and how I should treat it). However, to stop there is awfully selfish. I need to look onto others that way too. When you look at your spouse, do you see a Temple of the Holy Spirit? You should.

"Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body. (1 Corinthians 6:19-20 ESV)"

So when I was playing for Rebekah this morning, I wasn't just playing for her, I was playing for Him. It's this type of relationship that helps me get through those crazy moments, and enjoy the beautiful ones even that much more.

Peace to you through Christ on this most beautiful season,
~Matthew

Food Processing

2011-12-07T12:16:00.000-05:00

I've really been struggling as of late to get back into my routine that I love so much. Primarily I speak of running and blogging. I wouldn't say I'm in a spiritual desert, not at all. However I sometimes feel like He's blowing His Words into me like I blow into an empty bottle. There's air in there, but it's not going anywhere! Running keeps my physically healthy, and writing keeps me moving along His path spiritually.

Everyone needs to process their learning somehow, and for me, it's when I write. And as much as I finish my plate, or fill it with healthy choices, I need more than food to fill me up.

"And he humbled you and let you hunger and fed you with manna, which you did not know, nor did your fathers know, that he might make you know that man does not live by bread alone, but man lives by every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD." (Deuteronomy 8:3 ESV)

OK, I'm going to get a little weird here but it's what I do best. You eat, you digest, and it pumps nutrients through your body as it goes through your system, right? (I'm leaving out the last part!) Well I feel full right now, and not just physically full. However I haven't really taken much time at all to digest all of this, and it's not doing me any good. I've learned some amazing things, shared some amazing times with friends, continue to stay in the Word and discuss stuff with the family, tended to my marriage, as well as had some stumbles (no big surprise there). However I haven't processed it as much as I want, and writing this all down really helps me. I love capturing in words my successes and failures; it helps me tremendously!

Recently, I put aside some "stuff" in my life that has been getting in the way of all this and look forward to balancing a bit more. I'm excited to see what He helps me process!

Thus I encourage you too, that even though this is a busy time of the year, spend some time processing yourself. Some can do it best with a friend, some need silence, and some write! However, don't let life get so busy that you don't have a chance to think about it all. Every day we write a check (in the amount of 24 hours of life) to what we give our time. Some of those purchases are beautiful, and we should think and enjoy those moments! Some are tragic, and we may need someone to come along side us to help cash those moments out. Whatever the case, I pray you find Him in each one.

His,
~Matthew

Pondering Change

2011-11-04T00:12:00.000-04:00

As my son and I sat at the beach on a cool fall evening, listening to waves, and seeing how far the moon's light could stretch, I couldn't help but ponder change. You see this was the weekend before our move and I had a chance to go on a camping trip with my son and some other friends. There were a lot of things on my mind, but none more than my wife and 4 children.

Each of them (as I) had a different perspective on the move, and positive or negative, it was surrounding how as individuals or as a family unit we would adjust to the change. Needless to say it was the hardest on my teenage daughter, and easiest on our 4 month old (I know you must be surprised)! Change has a way of bringing out some emotions that otherwise may not have been surfaced.

For me, the weight of my struggle as a father raising my family in a very uncomfortable environment began to shed as the move came to a close. So much of my strength (from Him) was being used to protect my family from external environments outside my control. Yet as I breath a sigh of relief, change for others isn't as easy.

My oldest daughter, while overall positive, struggles with the social changes that brings her farther away from friends. None of this comes as a surprise to me, yet as I think about these struggles with her I see even light in this difficult change. Growth is often uncomfortable, and while I don't willingly expose my children to random uncomfortable situations, I think it's times like these that help an individual to grow. It teaches us to lean not on ourselves and our own understanding, but on Him and His.

When I look back on my journey as a Christian man, father, and child, it's those times in the fire when I was being refined that I am thankful for the most. Unfortunately when you're in that valley it's hard to raise your hand and express your thankfulness; it's only after the scraping off of those unrefined elements that we stand back and see the finished product. So while I am thankful for the end product, I am reminded that a fire was still involved.

It helps me as a father keep perspective with my children. I am learning not to be overly critical (being sensitive to the fact that they may be in a fire), but also at the same time not to shelter them and fear them entering the fire themselves. If it is my desire for my children to become more like Christ (and it is), then why would I want to steer them away from a situation that would cause growth? It reminds me of a quote:

"Isn’t it ironic that we often pray for God to make us Christlike, but the moment God allows something into our lives that would answer this prayer, we immediately send out a fervent prayer request to all our friends to have that circumstance removed?" - Henry Blackaby

We must shed in order to grow. My prayer is that I will model that to my children when I go through times of difficulty as well. May I give guidance and correction as a father in peaceful love and not model anxiety and frustration.

"And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life?" - (Luke 12:25 ESV)

Packing Light ...

2011-11-02T23:18:00.000-04:00

It's been a while since I've taken the time to write as I've been quite busy with moving. While that sounds like a reasonable explanation, it's really not as I'm sure I could have found the time. See I don't do this so that my words get read, I do this so that my writing these words helps me grow in this journey I'm on. While I am blessed and touched that at times my own struggles, perspectives, or victories, resonates with someone who comes across these posts, make no mistake that this is still primarily my journal. Journaling has been a key discipline in my growth as it's taken my head knowledge, and helped it penetrate into my heart. I really missed this.

So all that being said, I have to say that during this very busy time I have clearly felt the hand of God on me during this move. I didn't pray for a safe move, I didn't pray for my "stuff" to make it from one house to another, I didn't pray that my work would be flexible and understanding during the move, nor did I pray that I would have financial stability for the extra costs that come up during such a move. However, I did pray that His peace would be on me during this move, and that He could help me just take one step at a time.

That prayer was clearly answered.

And yet I did have a safe move, and my stuff did make it safely over, and work was incredibly flexible, and unexpected financial blessings made the move even smoother. The best part is, no matter what anyone else thinks, I can look back and know that it was all God; no part of that was my flesh. I am clearly not that calm by nature!

"But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you." - Matthew 6:33

So we're settled in and making this house our new home; even Rebekah likes her new view by the fire! Yet as I sit here writing these words and looking around this beautiful home, I can't help but realize that I'm still just a pilgrim on a journey. A traveler waiting to make his way home; enjoying the views along the way, but knowing his destination still lies ahead of him. This "stuff" that we acquire during our lives reminds me of what Randy Alcorn said. He reminded us that if we build treasures for ourselves here on earth, then each day we are just walking farther away from them. However, if we build up our treasures in Heaven, each day we find ourselves closer to them.

Here's to enjoying our blessings and packing light, for our real journey home!

His,
~Matthew

Look what I made Father!

2011-09-25T13:18:00.000-04:00

I love making pizza, almost as much as I enjoy eating it! However, most of my times goes into making that foundation, the dough. I not only have to take the time to knead it properly, but I also have to take the time to let it rise. Finally, once that is done, I can begin to stretch it to let it take shape.

Did you ever try to stretch pizza dough that wasn't ready to be stretched? At times I try to shortcut the process if I'm running late; however it's never an easy task. It's sort of like trying to stretch a rubber band and make it keep its shape! No easy feat, and one that often leaves me frustrated.

A friend and I were talking yesterday and he reflected that in order to grow, we need to stretch. I shared how I've grown in my faith, outreach, and have done more things to challenge that. It's been fruitful, but it's been a stretch; a challenge. Much like that dough, we need to stretch to begin to take the shape of the cross. Much like that dough it takes time, and multiple pulls, tugs, and spins in various directions, as our natural reaction is to retract into that rubbery ball of self. Eventually though, even our retractions begin to show signs of growth.

At times, like the dough, we need to just sit and wait on God. Let His Word and Spirit leaven us so that we are ready to be stretched some more. Much like dough began as a grain of wheat, we too began with just a seed. Though through refinement, and His love and care, we can begin to make something out of that seed.

Though like all good pizza, the fun and flavor comes in those toppings! Once stretched, He begins to grow His fruit on us. This pliable foundation that has been shaped is now a medium for many different and wonderful things. Each pizza is different, but delicious in their own right. Likewise, we have different spiritual gifts that we are used to reach others. Not every pizza is the same, and not every brother or sister is the same.

Yet without stretching and yielding to the Holy Spirit's call on our life, we become a rubbery ball that is left with only potential. He still loves us; but oh how much more glorious it will be to see Christ on that day hold us up to the Father and say, "Look what I made Father!"

Stretching,
~Matthew

"All Scripture is breathed out by God and profitable for teaching, for reproof, for correction, and for training in righteousness, that the man of God may be complete, equipped for every good work." (2 Timothy 3:16-17 ESV)

Family is More ...

2011-09-13T23:06:00.000-04:00

A man was stranded on a deserted Pacific island for years. Finally one day a boat comes sailing into view, and the man frantically waves and draws the skipper’s attention. The boat comes near the island and the sailor gets out and greets the stranded man. After a while the sailor asks, “What are those three huts you have here?” “Well, that’s my house there.” “What’s that next hut?” asks the sailor. “I built that hut to be my church.” “What about the other hut?” “Oh, that’s where I used to go to church.”

Laugh if you want, I did the first time I heard it, but isn't that the sad truth?

The reason I bring this up is that I find it interesting the responses that I am getting from others regarding my upcoming move. Some have simply asked if I plan to continue coming to Grace Community Church, some have suggested local churches in the area I will be moving to, and some have just assumed I'm leaving Grace regardless. Don't get me wrong, with a larger family the thought has crossed my mind when it comes to being able to stay involved, yet it never crossed my mind without pain. If God decides He wants my family elsewhere I'll let Him direct that, much like He orchestrated this opportunity. However until then, I'm staying put.

I reflect back on when we walked into our current church for the first time; feeling Him calling us there. Since that time He has helped me forge friendships, brought me opportunities for spiritual and relational growth, honed my leadership skills, and created a passion for what Grace is doing on the very unique corner of Detroit, Grosse Pointe, and Harper Woods (as well as globally). Most importantly though, along with quenching the thirst of my Soul, He has begun to give me new eyes, ears, mind, and a heart. Rather than never seeing opportunities to act on, I now feel His pain when I fail to act and miss those precious opportunities.

Relationally it's been incredible. As an example, the last three times I walked into my church in the past week, I shook hands and gave hugs to at least 15-20 different people that I could comfortably pull aside and share my personal issues with. In return, I know I would have a confidential ear, heart, and advice if wanted. While a vast majority of those individuals I don't see much outside church or meetings, through the years we have still forged trusting relationships.

There is no way, unless I am called, that I want to leave that behind.

My prayer is for you; for the 3 or 300 that read this post. I pray you begin to or continue to see your church as your family as well. Invest in it, serve in it, give to it, pray for it, and love it. If your church doesn't have that culture, then maybe He placed you there to start that culture. Don't let the distractions from a human run institution disenchant you; you will never agree with everything or everyone that attends your church. However if my guess is correct, I'm not the only imperfect one out there. Make your local church part of your immediate family; and never leave it unless prayerfully released.

God loves you, and so do I
~Matthew

Cravings and Vulnerability ...

2011-09-10T15:39:00.000-04:00

Make sure to check me out on my YouTube channel. These next few months are going to be real busy and I may not be able to capture everything in writing all the time; thus I may do some vlogging when I can.

Cravings and Vulnerability @ http://www.youtube.com/user/mgasperoni

His,
~Matthew

When I Say Jump ...

2011-09-07T23:56:00.000-04:00

I'm guessing most of us have heard the boot-camp-like phrase: When I say jump, you say how high! This reminded me of something that I read today; but first I was curious as to the origin of the phrase. My search ended quickly when I came across an answer (on the meaning of the phrase, not the origin) that caught my eye. This is simply a person who happened to answer the question for someone on a message board, but this is what they wrote:

It's just an old, old, expression, meaning someone has another person wrapped around their finger: You say "jump" and they are so eager to please you, they say, "how high?" It's just an old saying.

Interesting; I would say that is pretty accurate.

It reminded me of Levi (Matthew's) eagerness when he was called. I just kept reading these two verses over and over and just had to smile. It's a 2-verse call; how beautiful and simple. I hardly think the good doctor and fellow brother Luke (the author of this Gospel) was trying to keep it simple. So many other times we see records of conversation, resistance, banter, frustration, etc. But here? No. It's a 2-verse call.

After this he went out and saw a tax collector named Levi, sitting at the tax booth. And he said to him, “Follow me.” And leaving everything, he rose and followed him. (Luke 5:27-28 ESV)

There was something about His presence that was so obvious, so compelling, so magnetic, that just drew people in; immediately. I love how earlier in this chapter we hear the call of Peter. Here is this guy fishing, probably hearing Jesus teach on the beach, and when finding out that they caught nothing, Jesus offers them an end of the day tip. Willing (sort of), but expecting nothing, they listen to His tip that ends up paying off big. The people were "astonished" says the Text, as would I be. However Peter's response to this highlights that compelling nature that I spoke of earlier. Many seemed to respond in words unwritten "Wow, how did he do that?"; Peter responds quite differently.

But when Simon Peter saw it, he fell down at Jesus' knees, saying, “Depart from me, for I am a sinful man, O Lord" ... and Jesus said to Simon, "Do not be afraid; from now on you will be catching men.” (Luke 5:8,10b ESV)

He calls Him Lord; moments earlier he saw Him as a master, a teacher. Now he is falling at His knees calling Him Lord.

Levi, sitting at his desk, sees Jesus walking by calling him, and he leaves his post, and everything behind, to follow; immediately.

2000 years later and He is still drawing people to Him. I pray that you don't keep your head down, and that you and Jesus meet eye to eye. If you do, and just lower the gates of your heart for a minute to take one honest look at Him, you will be penetrated with a love beyond description. This journey isn't easy, it's far from easy actually. Yet you will discover a lasting joy and peace that this world and all its stuff simply can't offer. I enjoy my TV, camera, music, food and games, but I crave Him!

"The Christian ideal has not been tried and found wanting; it has been found difficult and left untried." - GK Chesterton

Praying we all make each of His commands a 2-verse call.

~Matthew

I don't want to hear it ...

2011-08-27T21:29:00.000-04:00

I think we have all been the one who at times hears something or sees something that we intentionally tune out. Perhaps it's something like pretending you don't hear your wife calling you from a different floor as your watching that last play on the last drive with :08 left; Hypothetically of course. Then of course there are those things, that when confronted, out of our defensive nature, we deny, push away, or ignore them all together. Perhaps it's ignoring that one line item on your 1040 that you know you should fill out; but with all the other real problems in the world, you feel you have a right to win a few sly deals now and then. Or perhaps it's that last really important text you need to send when you promised to yourself that you are done texting and driving.

There are hundreds of examples; and while we should always try work on making the right decision for our own character development, and ultimately reflect Christ, there is one bit of news we don't want to ignore ...

And he said, ‘Then I beg you, father, to send him to my father's house—for I have five brothers—so that he may warn them, lest they also come into this place of torment.’

Jesus told this parable about two individuals (now dead to the world) separated by an chasm in eternity that couldn't be crossed. One side was with God (and Abraham happened to be there in this story for illustration), and the other side was in torment (Hell). The one in torment tried to ask someone on the other side to send word back to his living family members so that they could learn the truth and avoid the same fate.

But Abraham said, ‘They have Moses and the Prophets; let them hear them.’

The responsibility is pushed back on those living; they know the truth. They may not want to hear it or believe it, but they have that choice.

And he said, ‘No, father Abraham, but if someone goes to them from the dead, they will repent.’

After all, an individual coming back to life to give a warning should surely be enough proof, right?

He said to him, ‘If they do not hear Moses and the Prophets, neither will they be convinced if someone should rise from the dead.’”

... (Luke 16:27-31 ESV)

Spoken by Jesus Himself, who later raised a man name Lazarus, and later Himself; how little things change. I imagine some today are on the other side of that chasm, begging at least for their family to find out. When all along; we have the truth. I almost hear Jesus saying: "They weren't convinced when I rose from the dead either ..."

While I could take a perspective of "they're never going to change", that's not what I hear from God. The story is told so we can place ourself there, imagine ourself in that position. Let us not wait until we are on one side of that chasm or the other to make His Truth known.

~Matthew

Being Shaped

2011-08-26T16:09:00.001-04:00

I read a passage today that reminded me about giving a thank you card to someone after we are given a gift at a party; it’s just proper, right? I recently blogged on how we should approach God with thanksgiving first, and then present our requests afterwards. However, it occurred to me that we thank Him first because He already gave us gifts without us even asking, so of course a thank you is in order. So how to thank Him?

Restore to me the joy of your salvation, and uphold me with a willing spirit. Then I will teach transgressors your ways, and sinners will return to you. Deliver me from bloodguiltiness, O God, O God of my salvation, and my tongue will sing aloud of your righteousness. O Lord, open my lips, and my mouth will declare your praise. (Psalm 51:12-15 ESV)

I am restored, so that ...
   I can teach others to return to Christ.
I am delivered, so that ...
   I can sing of His righteousness.
I am given lips that open, so that ...
   I can declare His praise.

These gifts should shape us. A gift of restoration should shape how we react and relate to others. A gift of deliverance should shape how joyful we are to be free. The gift of having a voice (figuratively and literally) should shape us so that we just want to praise to Him! Let us loosen our soul like wet grains of sand, and be shaped by our Creator all over again; today! Amen? Amen!

~Matthew

Actively Passive?

2011-08-25T12:04:00.001-04:00

The idea of loving others is not exactly a new idea to me. As a Christian this is not a suggested way of life, but rather a command. I'm not attempting to be prideful when I say that I have gotten better in learning not to judge others; as I have. However avoiding a behavior is far more passive than actively trying to live out a new behavior. Sitting in a room studying Scripture is important, as is not being judgemental; but walking out of the room and acting out the scripture is much more important. Likewise, actively showing love is far more important than just avoiding being judgemental.

Just recently I was pumping gas and I saw a man sweeping up the parking lot. He asked if he could pump my gas (never asked for money) and when I said I was fine, he went on to others. While I don't know for sure, I am guessing that he was someone out of work and looking to make a few dollars. Hands reaching out for an offering seems to be out on every street corner in my area these days. Yet after I dismissed him I began thinking I should have done something. Perhaps I could have offered him a dollar or two and let him pump my gas, or perhaps struck up some meaningful conversation. There had to be some grand plan He had in mind when our paths crossed, right?

As I pulled away and prayed about how to handle this situation the next time, the answer was far more simple than I was expecting. Talk! Just look at, smile, and talk to the person. While small talk may not be very profound in some of my relationships; smiling and striking up a conversation with a stranger about the weather could lead to laughs, love, and some great moments.

It occurred to me that this passive nature lurks in the dark and grey realm of apathy. It may not seem apathetic, but holding my tongue or taking captive every thought *(2 Cor 10:5) is only part of the equation. Besides, being passive, and not active in my faith, sounds an awful lot like being lukewarm:

"So, because you are lukewarm, and neither hot nor cold, I will spit you out of my mouth." (Rev 3:16, ESV)

Restraining a sinful behaviors is only truly valuable when I let His light shine through in exchange.

~Matthew

* "We destroy arguments and every lofty opinion raised against the knowledge of God, and take every thought captive to obey Christ" (2 Corinthians 10:5 ESV)

Thank You First

2011-08-24T22:08:00.001-04:00

Change is good right? Well I decided that I don't need to wait until I have the time to write a detailed entry every time; sometimes I miss out when God is speaking to me and I don't capture it because I am trying too hard or digging too deep. So while I will continue to post in my usual format, I will also be posting some quick thoughts as they occur to me during my time in the Word. I want to capture these thoughts, and who knows, maybe someone out there could use hearing them too.

A the leadership summit this year I was blessed to hear many speakers, including Steven Furtick. He reminded me that we don't say please, and thank you with God. We say thank you first, then we ask for requests. Coming across this passage it reminded me of just that; may I learn to start with thanking Him! I have so much to thank Him for, even on days that I struggle!

The one who offers thanksgiving as his sacrifice glorifies me; to one who orders his way rightly I will show the salvation of God!” (Psalm 50:23 ESV)

Hook, line, and sinker ...

2011-08-20T23:30:00.001-04:00

I think we're all familiar with the story of the good Samaritan. However the story starts out by someone trying to justify themselves before a teacher (who just so happens to be the Son of God) by asking what he needs to do in order to get into heaven.

Jesus starts out His reply (which is of course a question as usual!) and asked:

"What is written in the Law?"

And the man answers in summary about loving God and our neighbor, which then leads into the story of the Good Samaritan. However what I noticed today was not about the story at all, it was Jesus' question. You see the one I wrote above is not his complete reply; that's not the whole verse. Here is His full reply:

He said to him, “What is written in the Law? How do you read it?” (Luke 10:26 ESV)

"How do you read it?" Think about that.

Could He simply have been asking in two ways (redundantly) for him to read it aloud to Him? I don't think so. Even in English the tone seems pretty clear to me, but I decided to look up the Greek word out of interest. In Greek you get a pretty clear answer as well, the word used there (transliterated) is anaginōskō. It means to distinguish, recognize, acknowledge or know accurately.

It is a pretty good reminder to me as I read Scripture to ask myself the very question Christ asked the man; how do I read it? Do I know it? Do I recognize it? Do I acknowledge it? Again and again it's about transformation, not information. I could read multiple devotionals, jam through the Bible every year, throw a fish on my car (just for good measure that is), and still not recognize what God is trying to tell me through the Word. I need to anaginōskō His Word.

Let me read His word; and get it. Hook, like, and sinker ...
~Matthew

I'm cool! Yeah whatever, but anyway ...

2011-08-19T12:48:00.002-04:00

As I get older I began to have the opportunity (I think you can call this an opportunity!) to see trends return. Not all of course, but some. They may be fashion trends, music trends, or even expressions; and it got me thinking as to why; why do we see this?

Why would my child be embarrassed at something I wear, say, or listen to one day, and have it suddenly be ok the next? Perhaps it's OK because others are doing it now; it's not must me. Perhaps it's simply because it's a new and fresh idea again. Now before you think I'm making this a child/adult thing I'm not; I follow that pattern too.

Most of what I speak of is not all that dramatic; in fact this thought process was triggered by a simple picture I saw from a friend regarding an old fashion trend. However I think it's speaks volumes culturally and spiritually; we want to fit in. As a Christian who is open about his faith (which is not always that popular) I seem to think I don't mind being different. However when I get dressed in the morning I don't hide the fact that I want to look good and acceptable by today's standards which are culturally driven. Am I driven by vanity? No. But I don't want to walk out the door dressed in clothes that don't match (by today's fashion world order). Though I am colorblind so sometimes that happens anyway!

Yet as always, the Bible isn't silent:

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. (Romans 12:2 ESV)

So do I think dressing nice according to popular culture is evil; no, at least not intrinsically. So while I know this is overstated, it's just a surface level example to a deeper problem:

Swearing is fine as long as you don't offend someone, it's how we talk now.
Pornography is ok, all guys look at it occasionally.
Everyone gossips a little.
I don't want twins, and it's just called a pregnancy reduction; more people do it now too.
What exactly is the definition of "life" anyway ...
Forgiveness is easier than asking permission, right?
Divorce isn't a last resort that pains God; it's just what you do when you don't get along anymore.
I could go on and on ...

My point is that so easily I can become "conformed" to the pattern of this world if I'm not looking. Patterns of change don't start with big movements; they are often individual steps that take us from one world to the next. Let us turn our steps back to Him, one step at a time, and start taking this world back for Christ.

... now if "big hair" comes back, I'm scared!

~Matthew

Seeing Beyond the Reflection

2011-08-16T23:36:00.000-04:00

While I don't walk around street preaching, I make no intention of hiding my faith either. If you know me personally, you know at the very least Whom I follow. Some would tell me I share my faith too little, some would call me a Jesus Freak; I find it rather fascinating the paradox that those two viewpoints can put me in. In either case my point is simple; I represent Christ. Because I do so publically, it also creates a deep sense of responsibility.

"You who boast in the law dishonor God by breaking the law. For, as it is written, “The name of God is blasphemed among the Gentiles because of you.” (Romans 2:23-24 ESV)

Perhaps we could start a study on this passage but I think we over complicate His Word way too often. What I see here is simply people preaching a platform that others see straight through and thus creating distaste for that very platform they preach. And since that platform is God, and those that misrepresent Him do Him a disservice, it's an issue.

The platform that I boast from can not come from religion and rules; preaching the very things I struggle with. While I think there can be some beauty in some of the religious traditions, my boasting needs to come from Christ and what He represents; Holiness, Love, Forgiveness, Truth, Salvation, Grace, Mercy, etc.

Jesus preached some hard and serious Truths, no question. However He also lived a life defined by relationship. May I continue to study His life and have the courage to live more like Him every day; with my friends, or those who oppose me. It is that way of life that I want to reflect, not a bunch of rules. When someone looks beyond my reflection, may they not see a man and his rules, but rather a stumbling and honest man reaching out for His steady and Holy God.

~Matthew

Daddy, how can I tell you're a Christian?

2011-08-16T00:12:00.000-04:00

Or better yet, I won't wait for the question to come to me; I'll ask them myself.

What would they say? One thing is for sure, I think I would get an honest answer. I plan to ask this question tomorrow. I bet my kids will be throwing down some theology, but I wonder if their response will make me feel more like a follower of Christ, or a pharisee. Don't get me wrong, this isn't a train of guilt; it's just a good reality check. I want to make sure they not only know the words, but see them being acted out ... in me.

"You shall teach them to your children, talking of them when you are sitting in your house, and when you are walking by the way, and when you lie down, and when you rise." (Deuteronomy 11:19 ESV)

When all is said and done, with mistakes and bumps in the road, if my children see a life lived for Christ, and not just a life that spoke of Christ, then I did my job. It's not my job to prepare them for Harvard, but it is my job to prepare them for Heaven.

While I am a busy dad of 4, I still feel His tugging on my heart for something amazing; even more than what He's led me to thus far. I don't know what it is (yet), but I know I'm almost done with a few things He wants me to prepare first. It's so exciting! I made a promise that these next 5 years are going to be amazing, and I know they are!

Father, may my children see Christ not just in words, but in love and action through your servant. You promise such an amazing joyful life, of which I am just beginning to taste, and it is good! Thank you! Please continue to call my children as I know you have wonderful plans for them!

May these next 5 years bring Christ to life in this family like never before! Not out of rules, and rituals; but out of servitude, joy, and excitement (even in tribulation).

Building,
~Matthew

That first slice ...

2011-08-12T23:05:00.001-04:00

Did you ever want that first slice of the pie?

You see, I put some effort into this pie I made a while back; blueberry if you must know! I made the crust from scratch (as if there is another way) and put together the wild blueberry filling. Though I love to cook and have been blessed with my ability in a kitchen, I am no baker, and there is a big difference! Regardless, when this pie was cooked and came out of the oven, it looked quite good! So good in fact that my next picture of it (yes, I like to take pictures of my food) was a half-eaten one!

Switching gears slightly, perhaps you can ask yourself the question I began to ask myself again these last few days. Do you offer God your first or best slice of your time, or do you just let Him eat the scraps that are left at the end of the day?

I have found that with the new baby my personal time has diminished a bit; not surprisingly. I've tried to squeeze in my limited free time with TV and other senseless garbage that never satisfies. In fact, worse yet, that senseless garbage only leaves me longing for more time! Then, at the end of the day, I see if I can fit Him in somewhere.

Realize one important thing however; offering God your first slice of time will not just leave you feeling satisfied, but it will bless you in ways you need most. It may start as an act of obedience, but it ends with blessings far greater than you expect.

Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. (Matthew 11:28 ESV)

Oh how true that is! I was recently asked about how the concept of rest resonated with me these days, and it's been a difficult question to answer. However it's only been difficult as I've been shoving my mouth full of His pie all by myself, and not sitting at His table and eating together.

I think sleep deprived nights will still be here for a while with the new baby, but I know rest is going to return. Starting tomorrow, He will be getting my first and best slice again.

Resting,
~Matthew

I said yes!

2011-08-05T15:37:00.000-04:00

As my middle daughter prepares to be a flower girl in a friend’s upcoming wedding, it gets me thinking about marriage all over again. I fully realize that to some that word stirs up much different emotion than it does in me. Yet for those individuals, I’m not talking about the painful journey of what it became, but rather the joyous journey of what it should have been.

Reading through Hosea with my wife, it occurred to me how God has always been calling His bride; us. As Israel (His bride) continued to prostitute itself to Baal through sacrificing human life, cult prostitution, divided devotion, and other garbage, God continued to beckon her. What I found touching when reading is that while God certainly uses the idea of us being His people, and Him being our God; He reminded us in Hosea that He’s not just our God, He’s our husband.

“And in that day, declares the Lord, you will call me ‘My Husband,’ and no longer will you call me ‘My Baal.’” (Hosea 2:16 ESV)

God isn’t saying here that no longer will you worship Baal, but you will worship me. This wording and comparison here isn’t a God vs. god comparison; it’s a god vs. Husband comparison he expresses; yet again we see relationship.

God has always been, and continues to be, in search of His bride.

The question that I asked myself after this was simple; am I giving God the attention, love, and devotion that a bride would give her husband?

Please put jesting aside regarding the obvious retort to this, but do I look at God with the same level of love, devotion, and attention that I give my wife? When I remember the feeling of taking my wife’s hand for the first time, does it remind me of how I hold His hand? While my relationship with my wife has matured, it has only gotten deeper. Can I say the same for my relationship with my God?

I know it’s not manly to think of myself as a bride, but this isn’t a male female issue, it’s a relationship issue. The God of the universe wants to be in union with me. When I asked my wife to marry me, she didn’t come with a dowry filled with worldly riches, but she did come with a heart that loved me back. This marriage however does come with a dowry; it’s filled with things like eternal salvation and a chance to live a life full of lasting joy and impact.

The proposal was made. What did I say?

Yes!

You?

Jesus, and the Landing on the Moon

2011-07-26T12:22:00.000-04:00

I believe in Jesus! Well, of course I do, who doesn't? That's a bit of an odd statement as He was a historical figure regardless of your belief system. Though I suppose if you don't think we landed on the moon, than you may think that Jesus didn't exist either!

However while we may differ on doctrine, as Christians it means (or should mean) that we believe in who He was and said to be; the son of the one true living God.

Yet at times I think it would be nice if Jesus decided to reveal Himself to me (and the world) visually in ways tangible to our simple human understanding. I think it would be great for Him to come down, teach a bit, prove His power, and then head back to the throne. I think that if He really wanted us all to put our trust in Him that He would come down here, walk with us a bit, and just ... well ... prove it! After all, He knows how we were created and knows how we learn and understand. Seeing is believing right? So why not just reveal Himself in a clear simple way!

I mean imagine if He came here (in human form of course), fulfilled some of those prophesies, taught us, and better yet performed some miracles right in front of our human eyes! If we saw that then there would be no doubt. In fact, we would probably joyfully find ourselves persecuted and even die for Him because He would be "that real" to us! Seriously ponder that; imagine if God revealed Himself to us like that.

Perhaps even give Him a name that would be forever remembered ... like ... Jesus.

If I am not doing the works of my Father, then do not believe me; but if I do them, even though you do not believe me, believe the works, that you may know and understand that the Father is in me and I am in the Father.” (John 10:37-38 ESV)

God most certainly understands our minds and the need for humanistic proof; and He gave us this proof. Just because it wasn't our generation that was around when He walked this earth in human form and performed all these miracles doesn't make it any less real. He knew what we needed to believe, and He gave it to us.

We are a future generation now:

Jesus said to him, “Have you believed because you have seen me? Blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed.” (John 20:29 ESV)

He knew what we needed, and He gave it to us. Got belief?

Proof? Proof!

His,
~Matt

Drawing Attention

2011-07-26T09:35:00.000-04:00

Did you ever start doing something that seemed to draw the attention of others?

I recall various times pulling out my telescope while camping only to have it followed by visitors to my campsite and questions of interest! It's fun to find out that what you enjoy also draws in the attention of others. You get an opportunity to share something that is important to you while at the same time meet someone new. At times some even walked away from my campsite with a seed of interest in a subject that they didn't seem to have before they walked up.

However, I also recall washing my truck in my driveway on a beautiful fall day on time. I was listening to music only to have a frustrated neighbor shout for me to turn down the volume! I didn't recall it being very loud, and this was about noon so I don't think I was out of line; but regardless it certainly drew her attention! It created friction between us as the moment was a bit awkward.

Attention goes both ways.

When it comes to my walk with Christ, I often wonder the same. Does my walk interest people? Does it draw their attention to want to ask questions? Does the way I live make others curious about my faith?

Or perhaps, is it like an obtrusive noise to them? Does it bother them? Make them uncomfortable?

Don't mistake me, Truth should never be compromised or hidden; we don't have the Light so that we can hide It. Truth will always rub some the wrong way. After all, Jesus offended; yet more often He offended those that claimed to know God and walked a very different way. For those that had a need, for those that were curious, for those that had questions; He had the answers and lovingly shared them.

Thus says the LORD of hosts: In those days ten men from the nations of every tongue shall take hold of the robe of a Jew, saying, ‘Let us go with you, for we have heard that God is with you.’” (Zechariah 8:23 ESV)

This passage reminds me of that interest; those that saw something in the living God, and wanted to follow those that knew Him.

While there will always be others that are repelled from His Truth, I simply need to reflect all I can of His love, forgiveness, mercy, servitude, etc. I think authenticity is easily seen, and the converse is true as well. I don't go camping and set up my telescope to draw attention, I do it because it's what I do, it's what I enjoy, and it's part of who I am.

If I simply walk His path, daily; I will be blessed with the opportunity from those that ask questions to share my greatest passion of all, and that is Christ Jesus.

May I continue to be as open and authentic about my love for Christ as I am about my hobbies.

His,
~Matt

Beautification Via Flame

2011-07-18T00:05:00.000-04:00

The theme of God calling us His people, and in turn us calling Him our God is something often seen in Scripture. Likewise, the promise of us calling upon Him and His name, and Him answering that call is also seen often. However in Zechariah we see this theme coupled with another theme, and one that is not so comfortable:

“And I will put this third into the fire,
and refine them as one refines silver,
and test them as gold is tested.
They will call upon my name,
and I will answer them.
I will say, ‘They are my people’;
and they will say, ‘The LORD is my God.’”
(Zechariah 13:7-9 ESV)

While the process of going through fire can obviously cause pain (I don't really know how it wouldn't cause pain), His goal is not to give us this pain; His goal is to refine us. When I dicipline my children, I know it hurts them; yet my wish is to refine them, help them grow, and learn to understand right from wrong. The pain that goes along with that often hurts me I'm sure more than it hurts them.

This passage, especially the preceding verses is prophetic in a messianic sense, yet it still speaks of that process of refinement, the same type of refinement (testing) that we see in 1 Peter:

"so that the tested genuineness of your faith more precious than gold that perishes though it is tested by fire may be found to result in praise and glory and honor at the revelation of Jesus Christ." (1 Peter 1:7 ESV)

For me, these passages are a call and a reminder about where my path is heading if I wish to follow Him. I have and will continue to have refining fires in my life as He sees fit. Though too often I think of the easy (yet very painful answers) when it comes to what fires and trials look like in my life; like loosing a family member, my health, my job, etc. Yes these can be trials, and He may use them to refine me, but I don't think it is those events He uses most often, but rather events of submission.

Walking away from my job to choose a path that He is calling me to can be a fire that when tested at a distance seems a little too hot to jump into. Giving a truly sacrificial gift to someone you are being called to give it to when you are struggling yourself can be quite the fire as well. Showing His character of love and peace to a family member, friend, or coworker who continues to persecute you can be a fire that pushes you to the edge.

Yet as a follower, we are told not to fear:

"for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control." (2 Timothy 1:7 ESV)

Let us not forget that His fires don't leave us with scars, but leave us transformed. They don't disfigure us, they make us more beautiful!

Father, may you grant me the courage to not fear Your fires. While difficult times will certainly come upon me, and painful events will hurt me, Your fires don't leave me burned, but leave me transformed. Father, whatever it takes, make me like Jesus.

Yours,
~Matthew

Coffee Beans and Jesus

2011-07-15T22:53:00.000-04:00

Does coffee wake you up? Get you going? Revive you? For years I loved the smell of coffee, but couldn't stand the stuff when it hit my lips. I went my entire life disliking the popular beverage, only to find myself a few months ago acquire a taste for that rich bean like I never thought I would! It's a rather nonsensical explanation on my part that led me to start drinking it (and yes, I prefer it black!) but aside from the process of change for me, it's something I really enjoy now. Something that in the morning, especially with a newborn in the house, gets me out of the fog and tastes pretty delicious in the process!

It occurred to me this evening that Jesus is quite the pick-me-up too. You see a few minutes ago, after finally getting my two middle children down for bed, I plopped on the couch to put in my latest red envelope arrival (that would be a Netflix movie for you non-reds!). Well, over the past few weeks with being so busy with the new baby, my devotion and meditation time has suffered a bit; frankly any me time has been hard to come by as you can imagine. I thought about taking that time to pray, read, or journal, but I really wanted to watch that movie! After all, I only have an hour or two before I need to crash for bed.

So I decided that I'd at least take a few minutes to pray before I started the movie. After all, if I throw God a few minutes first then I wouldn't feel guilty about watching that movie right? :)

That's when it hit me all over again; the difference between a religion and a relationship. Some roll their eyes when I say those words, but until you experience it, you just won't understand. All these past months and years building our relationship has laid a foundation that is beyond words to describe. In the quiet of my basement, I closed my eyes, opened my heart to Him, and begin to talk and ask Him in. So quickly He filled up my heart with joy, peace, and excitement beyond anything that a coffee bean can do to me in the morning. Suddenly that movie was out of my mind and the desire to simply sit, talk, relax, and reflect with Him was consuming me.

I'll have another chance to watch that movie, but for now, I'm going to spend some more time with Him. Know that I will be praying for many of you by name, and anyone who happens to read these words over the next hour. I pray you come to know Him more through your own journey. Pray, talk to Him, build that relationship; He is the way ...

"Rejoice in hope, be patient in tribulation, be constant in prayer." (Romans 12:12 ESV)

His,
~Matthew

4 Days and Counting ...

2011-06-18T21:54:00.000-04:00

I think to be a good hip Christian who blogs you should write an entry on Father's day about how this day is a day to remember your eternal and Holy Father in heaven. However, to be authentic is a bit more important than to be hip, so let me share with you what I'm mostly thinking about lately and especially on this Father's day:

I'm going to be a dad again! =)

Wednesday is our [my wife's] scheduled C (that's hip for scheduled cesarean-section surgery); hey, I didn't say you couldn't be hip. Anyway, Benjamin Levi or Rebekah Colleene will be making this a family of six very soon! To say I'm excited is an understatement.

"Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD,
the fruit of the womb a reward.
Like arrows in the hand of a warrior
are the children of one's youth.
Blessed is the man
who fills his quiver with them!
He shall not be put to shame
when he speaks with his enemies in the gate."
(Psalm 127:3-5 ESV)

I can't help but imagine wrapping my arms around my four children with pride and pledging to Christ that I will do my best to represent Him to my children (with my life, not just my instruction). Imagining how together we can build an army of love to conquer the gates of hell by showering the world with His Truth.

Oh, my kids see me mess up, get angry, and show my many faults; but I hope I model for them enough forgiveness, authenticity, and an ear to listen in return.

While I do remember that tomorrow is never promised, and my very breath I just took is a gift, I still can't help but be filled with excitement as this day is quickly approaching. God willing, I am so excited to dedicate this child in front of my church family, feeling that little hand squeeze my finger, see their eyes meet mine for the very first time, and simply watch this miracle of life grow.

So while this blog entry may not be focused on my eternal Father, I still recognize who's child my wife is really carrying, and that is His. If I continue to be just as excited after my fourth time around, I know He continues to welcome with joy each of His countless children in the world as well.

Happy Father's Day Abba!

Running With Confidence!

2011-06-18T09:20:00.001-04:00

These past couple weeks for various reasons has given me some time to reflect on my journey. While I see many struggles through this process, I also see so many of His blessings in my life. Additionally, I look back on the man or boy that I was, and see many voids that have been filled by Him. I am so very eagerly looking forward to this next stage of my journey. Obedience can be scary and exhilarating all at the same time. However this passage was a sobering reminder to me of the stumbling blocks that my adversary can put in the way.

"You were running well. Who hindered you from obeying the truth? This persuasion is not from him who calls you. A little leaven leavens the whole lump." - (Galatians 5:7-9 ESV)

Don't mistake me, my confidence is not conceit as it lies with Him not myself, but there is a sense of confidence (as there should be) with His presence in my life. Yet it's that confidence if not rested on Him where I think I risk falling away. I don't mean to discuss the Theological point of losing your salvation or not, but clearly the enemy (disguised in many ways) can pull us off His path.

May I learn to put on His armor daily, not mistaking who I am in a battle with. Yet let me never forget Who fights for me on my behalf if I submit and let Him take the front line.

In Christ I am praying for you now, many by name; may you have an amazing weekend in Him. Enjoy the weather, celebrate your fathers, laugh with your children, kiss your spouse, and smile and experience His amazing peace and joy!

Ride joyfully and confidently on His path ... but stand guard.

God loves you and so do I,
~Matthew

I'm scared ...

2011-06-16T10:04:00.001-04:00

“Only, they asked us to remember the poor, the very thing I was eager to do.” (Galatians 2:10 ESV)

I live in a city caught between two worlds, at least financially; Grosse Pointe, and Detroit. I have to admit that this placement has become a struggle for me, one in which I never expected. You see we moved to Harper Woods for a few reasons; it fit our price range, it was diverse, and frankly it was nice to live in a familiar area surrounded by family. However, after the housing crash, and homes in my area began to sell for $25,000, the impact to my city took a turn that I was not anticipating.

I’m not looking to judge, but I ask a rhetorical question; what situation causes a family to move into a home that is $25,000? I’m simply thinking (yes, this is my opinion) that while there most certainly are exceptions, that a family moving into a low cost home is possibly financially stressed. Perhaps out of work, disabled, single income with multiple low paying jobs just trying to provide for their family, etc. I understand this can be very subjective and open to interpretation, however what is not subjective after this change is that I went from a school playground across the street where I felt comfortable sending my kids to play, to one in which I feel uncomfortable. From issues of horrific language, inappropriate relational activity, aggression and fighting, disrespectful behavior, destruction of property, and even issues like public urination when my kids are playing. This is hardly subjective.

I drive one direction to shop at Trader Joe’s in Grosse Pointe and shop with my kids smiling, polite workers, and a community that smiles says hello.

I drive another direction to shop at my grocery store at the end of my street and I hear words or anger, frustration, pain, disappointment, verbal abuse, and faces that are downcast and keep to themselves.

Before someone wants to stop and correct me about a negative experience they had a Trader Joe’s or tell me about how nice the help was at our local grocery store, I know there are exceptions. In fact, at Vegas Foods recently (a local grocery store that I struggle to shop in now) I had a beautiful chat with the cashier about love, Christ, the importance of Scripture, and our children to share the light in this community.

I won’t lie, I want to leave. I want pack up, continue to pay my mortgage on a home that is worth a third of what we owe, and rent, or buy somewhere else. I begin to judge and think, if they don’t care about their community, then why should I care? Yes I then remember the recent words of my sister in Christ Jessica at church last week and her experience showing Christ in some troubled areas of Detroit. “There are certainly people who care.” she assures, “They’ve just given up hope, have little faith, and feel forgotten.”

“Only, they asked us to remember the poor, the very thing I was eager to do.” (Galatians 2:10 ESV)

Remember the poor. I don't think you need to be a bible scholar to know that we are commanded many times to remember the poor. But what does that look like for me though? God placed me here, and His Spirit is scorching the flesh of my heart, and I know that I was not placed here to become financially stable so I could move soon. Yet what does His calling look like for me?

This is where you come in. I’m asking for you to pray for me.

I need to discern what His will is for placing me here. I’m not going to hide from obvious facts and cloud them with exceptions and political rhetoric; there is darkness around me. Communities and individuals that hide behind city pride and let the darkness consume them are creating deeper damage, and are not resolving anything. Love for your community requires honesty, and effort to make a change. I know this, yet I struggle with the feeling that I want to simply run away. I know I may not be here (in this neighborhood) for the rest of my life; but I need to let Him make an impact through me while I am here.

“No one after lighting a lamp covers it with a jar or puts it under a bed, but puts it on a stand, so that those who enter may see the light.” (Luke 8:16 ESV)

… a follower of Christ does not let His Spirit be lit within Him and run from darkness and take that light away from the darkness that so desperately needs it.

He has something amazing planned for me, I know it, but I’m scared of my flesh pulling me away from His calling; pray for me.

~Matthew

"But when He" moments

2011-06-12T23:26:00.001-04:00

Moments come and go; much like the perfect sunset. If you're there at the right time, right place, you can experience something spectacular.

As I was reading through the first chapter of Galatians last night, I got to the part where Paul was explaining his calling to the people. How as a youth he excelled in his faith, hung tight to his Jewish teachings, and persecuted the church of God. Then in verse 15, at least the way ESV translates it, he starts by saying ...

"But when He ..." (speaking of God)

I'm not after translation variants, or word studies here. In fact, it really doesn't even matter how your translation starts this verse. My point is much more high level than that; in fact, it's a question.

I started asking myself: How many 'but when He' moments have I had in my life?

How many times was I about to make a decision when He stepped in?
How many times was I about to open my mouth when He spoke to me first?
How many times was I about to have that thought when He interceded?

The questions aren't complete until I make my choice. He can intercede, He can speak, He can step in, but ultimately I need to choose His path, not mine.

I found that if I looked, He was everywhere. In almost all decisions I can recall, He was present, guiding me, loving me, speaking to me. I have 'but when He' moments all the time. Perhaps another way of looking at this would be His perspective towards me.

"When Matthew heard me, he ... "

I what? Obeyed? Ignored?

May I continue to recognize His whispers in my life and have the courage to obey, so that I can experience something spectacular!

Learning Obedience,
~Matthew

My Journey on His Path ...

2011-06-12T16:17:00.001-04:00

I was asked to share at church this morning a bit about my story, in actuality His story, over the past few years of my journey with Him. When I began to reflect back, a lot indeed has changed. However most significantly has been the journey from the God of my head, to the God of my heart. Taking what I know about Him intellectually, and letting Him penetrate my heart.

For me, this transformation began with my acceptance of His Word, The Bible, for what it is; Truth. It was then that Romans 12:2, that transformation by the renewal of my mind, began. While that journey to accept His Word as Truth is a multi-hour conversation over coffee just to get started, what I can easily say is that you don't have to drop your intellect at the foot of the door before grabbing on to His word as truth. In fact, it's His Word that completes knowledge. But that's for an other entry ...

Once I began to accept Him at His Word, one thing that has, and continues to resonate strongly with me is how Holy He is. While I will never know the full extent of His holiness until meet Christ face to face, what I do know is that He is indeed Holy. He is worthy of my complete devotion and all my worship.

I remember reading R.C. Sproul one time about how God says in Scripture that He is Love, Mercy, and Justice. Yet He doesn't refer to Himself in Scripture as Love Love Love, or Mercy Mercy Mercy, or Justice Justice Justice (that repetitive pattern we sometimes see for emphasis). However He does say He is Holy, Holy, Holy.

I draw breath because He lets me.

Immediately then it's not about me anymore, it's about Him. I see that I can enjoy my blessings, but now I'm a steward of those things; because they're not mine, they're His.

It's these two things; accepting the Bible as Truth, and recognizing His holiness; that pushed me into my journey that I am at now, and that is learning a life of obedience. (note 'learning', not mastered!)

About a year ago I began to pray about ways to serve my church aside from just financial support through tithing. He opened that door as I was asked to serve on the core team to the Men's Ministry at my church. He knew that I was lacking in one fundamental area of my faith, and that was discipleship. You see while the Men's Ministry does indeed have 'events', it's not an event driven ministry. It's about creating relationships with the men at Grace Community Church. We all should have a Paul pouring into us, and we should all have a Timothy to pour into. As men we want to be tough, and want to do life on our own, but that's not how we were created. Proverbs 27:17 says that as iron sharpens iron, one man sharpens another; that's how we were created; to do this life together.

I began to grow even more as he pushed me into other areas outside my comfort zone with more 'everyday' acts of obedience. Praying over someone for the first time. Engaging in a conversation with a man at the church that I didn't know. Seeing an opportunity to share Christ with someone at work for the first time. Looking at my kids in the eyes and telling them I'm sorry when I misrepresent Jesus Christ in my role as a father. Pulling myself away to pray when I think I'm too busy. Not being embarrassed to pray in public. The list could go on, and these things are not natural for me. However they do get easier, the blessings continue to pour out, and they allow me to be used for His Kingdom.

Another way I began to journey was when I began to journal. I quickly realized that pen and paper weren't for me and I started this blog here on Blogspot. I love writing, and it's a great way for me to journal and share at the same time. I don't blog to preach, I blog to share. Much of what I write about are my own struggles. Let me say that there is not a greater feeling on earth than being used by Him. When I get an email, or someone talks to me and says how something I wrote touched them, it's quite powerful. Perhaps they struggled with something similar, or perhaps they were praying and something God put on my heart related to their journey and spoke to them as well, but whatever the case I give Him all the honor and glory. It's an incredible thing to be used personally by the God who spoke the universe into existence! If that isn't humbling I don't know what is!

So where do I go from here? I don't know, but I know He does. I just pray that I have the courage to obey when I hear Him calling next. I sometimes think about my qualifications and strengths when imagining where He wants me to go next on my journey. However I often remember a quote that stops all that pondering and anticipation:

"God doesn't call the qualified, He qualifies the called."

May we all be open to His call for our lives. We serve an amazing, and Holy Holy Holy, God.

God loves you, and so do I
~Matthew

Alone

2011-06-03T00:45:00.001-04:00

While I don't often like the feeling of being alone and separated away from my family, there are times when I enjoy some quiet time; as when I go hunting or take a day sabbatical to be alone with Him. Sitting amidst His creation for a time of rest and reflection is wonderful, but in general I love to be around people, primarily my family. However there are times when the feeling of being alone was not welcoming at all.

I remember a time a couple years back when I went to the UK on a business trip for a week. I was there previously for another business trip with a group, but this time it was just me. I travelled alone, had a hotel alone, and went to and from the office outside London alone. To some this may seem like a wonderful trip, and I initially thought it was going to be for me as well, but it was miserable!

The hotel was wonderful; I stayed at the Tower Hotel in downtown London right across from the Tower Bridge seen in the picture. The food was wonderful, the service was wonderful, and even the weather was wonderful! I however missed my wife and kids terribly. I could probably explain several reasons why I felt this way, but my point is simply that when I think of a time when I really felt alone, it was then.

So today on the way to work, as I was listening to a talk from The Pineapple Stories, and something was said that really showed me other ways I am alone; or perhaps other ways that I choose to be alone.

"When you tell people everything is fine, you're facing your problems alone. And Christianity was never made to face alone." - Otto Koning

It reminded me of how true this statement is, as in Scripture we read about Jethro (Moses' father-in-law) speaking wisdom seeing him so overburdened with work.

You and the people with you will certainly wear yourselves out, for the thing is too heavy for you. You are not able to do it alone. (Exodus 18:18 ESV)

I sadly fall into this category all too often, and by choice. Perhaps it's an aspect of control in me that doesn't want to let go; so at work, home, or sometimes socially I refuse to let others in as those words "I'm fine, how are you?" leave my lips all too often. My life certainly is filled with blessings, but when I'm struggling I still seem to fight the urge to internalize; a vicious cancer of the soul that certainly can cause physical harm as well. Culture tells me to be tough, and deal with my struggles. Culture tells me that asking for help is a sign of weakness. However I can't serve both God and popular culture; they are not inclusive of eachother. Besides, He most certainly did not plan for us to burden ourselves, in fact it's quite the opposite.

"I'll be my brother's keeper, so the whole world will know that we're not alone" - I want to make those lyrics from one of my favorite songs a reality. However it starts with my authenticity and transparency to those close to me, as it's that level of authenticity that draws us closer together.

Join me ...

Father, may you continue to teach me that while being physically alone can be a struggle for me, isolating myself from others who can lift me up in prayer, support me, and show Your love through them, is not a solution. May I learn to embrace my struggles by reaching out to those you guide me to, and let Your healing hand be used in others as You use me for them. May I learn to submit to you daily, so that You can restore me daily in return.

Abba's Day!

2011-06-01T12:07:00.000-04:00

Do you like fairs/carnivals? The smell of sweet or fried food in the air, the sun baking down on you, face paintings, games, excited crowds of people, and a host of rides that seem to take up almost every square foot of that park or church parking lot? Well, I don't! However that doesn't mean I don't enjoy myself. After all, while I may not be the carnival type, I know my kids are; and it's so much fun to watch the joy on their faces. I love how putting aside my own agenda for my kids' can bring me so much joy.

We see that same type of self-sacrifice with other occasions too; birthdays, mother's day, father's day. We put aside our own interests for the sake of the one(s) whom we are celebrating.

Imagine having an Abba's day; a Father's day for our Lord. We talk about doing this all the time as Christians, but have I ever really done it? After all, there are some mother's days that I feel were less "successful" than others. Perhaps some years I really found a way to lay aside my own agenda for my wife, or mother. Maybe some years with the business of it all I lost the focus of who I was really celebrating. Yet there are those days where you can probably recall making it all about them and how great it really felt.

Thus I go back to my original point: Imagine doing that for God; taking a day to truly celebrate Him. Waking up, and completely laying aside your own agenda and letting the Spirit guide you in prayer or through the Word, or simply in Spirit to whomever He wants you to talk to that day; whatever He wants you to do that day; wherever He wants you to go that day?

Oh, I've had times where I felt I listened to the Spirit and was blessed by what He led me to. I've had days were I was so deeply into His Word that He impacted me significantly. I've had days were I think I prayed more than I spoke. I've had days where I woke up and the first words that left my lips were Thank You Lord. Yet I don't think I've consciously had a day that from morning until night I've put aside my own agenda for His. There have been plenty of times where I prayerfully sought His guidance and presence on my own agenda, but I never truly put down my clipboard with my list of things to do and said: "Not today ... it's Your list today!".

He's blessed me with a wife, children, job, house, and other responsibilities, and I know He recognizes that. However I know I can and should put down my agenda once in a while (and certainly more than once a year) to truly celebrate Abba's Day. If my children's agenda can bring me joy when I lay down mine for theirs, how much more joy will His agenda bring to me! :)

Looking forward to telling you about my first Abba's Day soon! =)

His,
~Matthew

Distractions!

2011-05-22T22:32:00.000-04:00

Many things enter my life as distractions! Yummy chocolate chip pound cake for instance is certainly one! Enjoying the first piece isn't the problem, it's the slices after that which really try to grab my attention! There are other distractions though lately which have been bothering me, in particular the non-events of this weekend promoted by some to be The Rapture. I know you are probably sick of hearing about that as am I, but this being my journal I thought it important to get a few thoughts down before they began to slip my mind.

Let me first start off by saying a few things. I seem to hear a little too often in Christian circles blaming the enemy [Christian speak for Satan] for everything bad that happens, even to the point of daily routine frustrations. Can he be? Sure. Is he always? I doubt it.

Yet I do not underestimate his power nor his involvement in my life. I tend to believe that anything that leads us away from the Cross of Christ is demonic in nature. It could be something cultural, but also often it's religious and legalistic behaviors or rules that pull us away from His Grace. Do I think that the prosperity gospel (a teaching that tells us that if we are truly following Christ that we will be healed, rich, and powerful) is demonic in nature? Absolutely. Is the fact that I spilled my coffee over my pants on the way to work that caused me to be late the scheme of the enemy? Possibly, but I doubt it.

So when I first began hearing the views of Family Radio about the upcoming Rapture it simply annoyed me. I saw them as a very misguided group of people with very poor theology preaching from a twisted view of Scripture. As we got closer, it became a joke to me, often joking with friends which one of us will be around after 6PM on Saturday. Now however, after the time has come and gone, I'm a little bothered by it, and here's why.

I could be wrong, and I pray I am, but I have a bad feeling that the significance of the Rapture (The Rapture) has been diluted a little among some believers. I simply think that all this joking and teasing those extremely misguided views has left some with a layed back attitude to the real event coming. I don't mean to imply that some of my brothers and sisters in Christ don't think that Judgement Day is a big deal, I just think that all this joking possibly took the edge off the event.

Do I think that taking even a slight edge off a believer's feeling about the Rapture is the work of the enemy? Sounds like it to me ...

Father, I pray that you continue to stir in Your children a sense of conviction about our ultimate fate. While some groups have and will continue to try and predict your Son's return, may we learn to ignore their views without losing sight of what that Day means for all of humanity. May we not reach out to those lost by using fear and control, but rather love and compassion. Continue to protect Your children from the attacks of the enemy, no matter how subtle, so that we can remain in union with You and do Your Will, always preparing for your return.

But know this, that if the master of the house had known in what part of the night the thief was coming, he would have stayed awake and would not have let his house be broken into. (Matthew 24:43 ESV)

Preparing,
~Matthew

What does it take to feel desperate?

2011-04-21T13:45:00.003-04:00

Standing on the glass floor at the CN Tower in Toronto certainly gave me a feeling of desperation! Fearfully standing with a camera pointing down, I was reassuring myself that the floor must have been tested countless ways; at least I had hoped so! Because the material I was standing on was transparent, and I could see where in fact I was already moments before, gave me a very clear picture of the reality (height) I was at!

My situation didn’t change, just my view of it.

The title of this entry is a continuation of my thoughts from a response to my friends blog entry about our prayer lives, and the question that was asked, what does it really take to become more involved in prayer with our heavenly Father?

My answer to the question is simply one word: Desperation

I pray at times a very fearful prayer; whatever it takes Father, make me like Jesus. If it is in God’s will to remove from me my family, my house, my job, my health, or other things I often cling to in this world so that He can make me like Jesus, so be it. I certainly do not wish it, and dwelling on it can fill me with fear, but He knows what is best for me; He knows what I need.

However, I should not have to lose those things precious to me to become desperate for God. While it certainly may seem more difficult to feel desperate for God in a situation when I have my physical and emotional needs met, it’s something I must seek. Maslow may feel that self-actualization is at the top of our need pyramid, however I feel that self-denial and complete surrender to Christ is where the pyramid needs to lead. Now one may say it’s a game of semantics and that my self-actualization actually comes from complete surrender to Christ, as that is what completes me. However I still need to retain the fundamental truth that culture, society, and “human nature” are not my guides; I don’t wish to fit a mold, or certainly not one that society creates.

I should expect persecution, but I should not have to be persecuted before I become desperate.

I should expect to lose many things in this world for His sake, but I should not have to lose them to become desperate.

I should expect fiery trials to come my way, but I should not have to experience them before I become desperate.

I can have much, but still be desperate for Christ.

I can have little, but still be desperate for Christ.

I know how to be brought low, and I know how to abound. In any and every circumstance, I have learned the secret of facing plenty and hunger, abundance and need. I can do all things through him who strengthens me. (Philippians 4:12-13 ESV)

A verse that is often taken out of context; Paul has learned that in whatever situation (having much, or having little) that the secret of facing those things is Christ. Christ doesn’t promise prosperity for following Him, in fact He promises quite the opposite. However there are likely to be times of plenty, along with times of need, and in both of those cases the secret to success is Christ Himself.

Father, teach me that while You are in control, and You give and take away, that I need not wait to lose something to feel desperate for You. Call me Father, and let me continue to feel a longing for You, a longing that can only be satisfied by communion with You. We are but pilgrims in this world; children of the Most High called to be Your hands and feet to reach out to a world in need. May we feel the longing to be home, yet meanwhile joyfully and eagerly use our time here to spread Your message of love! Draw me near to You father … I want to be desperate for You!

~Matthew

Link to my friend's blog, The War Room: What does it take? http://hispathdaily.blogspot.com/2011/04/what-does-it-take-to-feel-desperate.html

Opening that gift ...

2011-04-19T23:43:00.000-04:00

As I read through Acts 10, I observed something in particular that I wanted to reflect on. First, you have an introduction to a man named Cornelius:

At Caesarea there was a man named Cornelius, a centurion of what was known as the Italian Cohort, a devout man who feared God with all his household, gave alms generously to the people, and prayed continually to God. (Acts 10:1-2 ESV)

A rather positive introduction for certain. Simply put, a man of great faith. Not only does this man of great faith receive a solid Biblical introduction, but he also hears from a messenger of the Lord that he has been noticed:

And [the Angel] said to him, “Your prayers and your alms have ascended as a memorial before God. (Acts 10:4b ESV)

Again, not too shabby! The angel not only told him that his prayers (and alms) were received, but that they ascended "as a memorial" before the living God of the universe Himself! Clearly some type of recognition will come upon him right? Absolutely, and later in the chapter this great recognition, this amazing gift, is revealed to him:

While Peter was still saying these things, the Holy Spirit fell on all who heard the word. (Acts 10:44 ESV)

What a gift! Is there another gift greater than God Himself dwelling in us? I think not! However I think I all too often forget His majesty, and as I read Francis Chan's book, Forgotten God, I am reminded of how much I take His Spirit for granted, or worse yet, forget His presence in my daily life.

What does the Spirit do? His works are ineffable in majesty, and innumerable in quantity. How can we even ponder what extends beyond the ages? What did He do before creation began? How great are the graces He showered on creation? What power will He wield in the age to come? He existed; He pre-existed; He co-existed with the Father and the Son before the ages. Even if you can imagine anything beyond the ages, you will discover that the Spirit is even further beyond. -St. Basil the Great-

Father, may I continue to be reminded of how priceless the gift of Your Spirit is in my life. He guides me, He convicts me, He counsels me, and through Him and Your Son I can approach Your throne and we communicate in perfect loving harmony. However, may I remember that this Gift is not just for me, but is meant to be shared with others You lead my way. May I represent You best by getting out of the way and letting Your Spirit work through me and in me. Help me Father to continue to trust You more each day.

Remembering Him,
~Matthew

Greater things have yet to come ...

2011-04-16T13:07:00.000-04:00

You're the God of this city
You're the King of these people
You're the Lord of this nation
You Are

You're the light in this darkness
You're the hope to the hopeless
You're the peace to the restless
You are

For there is no one like our God
There is no one like You God

For greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done
In this city
Greater things have yet to come
And greater things are still to be done here

(Chris Tomlin - God of this City)

What a wonderful prayer walk in Detroit this morning. As tens of thousands of believers crowded the streets, and God parted the clouds, together we prayed, worshiped, laughed, and were one church. One church! It wasn't about denomination, race, gender, nationality, or economics. This was the Body of Christ.

"if my people who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and heal their land." (2 Chronicles 7:14 ESV)

The Spirit of Detroit sculpture in the picture above stands in front of a verse inscribed on the wall behind. The verse is from one of Paul's letter to the Corinthians.

"Now the Lord is that Spirit: and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty." (2 Corinthians 3:17)

As the nations watch Detroit rise from the ashes, may He get the glory! He is the Spirit of this city, this world, and our hearts.

Just one soldier in His Army,
~Matthew

The Flood!

2011-04-14T22:30:00.001-04:00

"[The meek man] knows well that the world will never see him as God sees him, and he has stopped caring." - A.W. Tozer

That my dear friends is a wonderful freedom is it not? To stand in the midst of the world, with many looking down, confused, or perhaps even angered by the Rock we stand on and not be affected. It's that humble confidence that floods us with joy and peace in the midst of all that. It's Christ residing in our hearts, not just head knowledge. No more pretending who we are, or putting up this front to try and win favor over man; it's artificial:

"Artificiality is one curse that will drop away the moment we kneel at Jesus' feet and surrender ourselves to His meekness. Then we will not care what people think of us so long as God is pleased." - A.W. Tozer

This certainly describes the transformation He has been working in me. Oh sweet freedom! Not that I don't stumble, it's just that when I stumble I don't need to care if anyone saw or what they think. I just pick myself up (or be helped up) and keep walking to that cross!

Knowing Christ intellectually to knowing Him emotionally and completely (from our head to our heart) is a long journey. Yet once that path is carved out, get ready for a flood! Do you recall as a child making "rivers and lakes" on the beach? Digging a hole in the sand and then digging out a trench that connected your hole with the lake? And do you recall how as soon as that connection was made the water came flooding in? Oh! That's exactly what I'm talking about! My heart is being flooded!

Bring on the flood Father!

"Tuning in" to God

2011-04-12T11:50:00.002-04:00

I think sometimes we try so hard to get Christian fellowship right, church done right, or worship done right, that we take our eyes off of God in hopes to make it better. We don't need to make it better, or try and draw closer to one another, He does that for us. I love how Tozer describes it:

"Has it ever occurred to you that 100 pianos all tuned to the same fork are automatically tuned to each other? They are of one accord by being tuned, not to each other, but to another standard to which each one must individually bow. So 100 worshipers meeting together, each one looking away to Christ, are in heart nearer to each other than they could possibly be were they to become “unity” conscious and turn their eyes away from God to strive for closer fellowship. Social religion is perfected when private religion is purified." - A.W. Tozer

I had this visual in my head that I needed to get down. Forgive the crude representation, but in fact the method to the left is actually a lot more complicated than I even drew it. When we align, when we "tune", ourselves to Christ, we will naturally draw closer together. We often talk about having our vertical relationship with Him as well as our horizontal relationships with others. However, a strong horizontal relationship with our brothers and sisters will naturally get stronger the more we align with Him. We of course need to maintain our relationships here on earth. However if our eyes continue to gaze upon Him while we are in these relationships they will naturally become closer. I think the reason the body of Christ is and can be so divided is because we focus so much on our local church, rather than the church of Christ. I have issues in this area for sure.

I have a tendency to lead my small group, not let Him lead
I have a tendency to focus on my agenda in my ministry meetings, not His
I have a tendency to lead my family as I see fit, not He

Father, help me to realize that even if I think my agenda is "good", it may not be "Yours". I need to focus my energy on tuning my relationship with You and let You work in me and others to draw the body closer together. Unification is what You seek, and we can only be unified if we all turn and gaze upon You. Forgive me for straying, and I thank You for Your grace during my departures. May my gaze continue to be fixed upon You more as our journey together deepens.

I appeal to you, brothers, by the name of our Lord Jesus Christ, that all of you agree, and that there be no divisions among you, but that you be united in the same mind and the same judgment. (1 Corinthians 1:10 ESV)

Tuning,
Matthew

God is the ultimate Musician!

2011-04-07T12:47:00.001-04:00

As my heart is now beginning to feel Easter getting closer, it may be a good time for me to take some Spiritual inventory. While I know that it is often spoke of that we keep our fasting private, my sharing isn’t to lift myself up, but rather show how God is working in me and glorify Him. So on that note, for those that don’t know, I decided to give up 2 main streams of media in my life over these 40 days leading up to Easter; Facebook and television.

This time has been incredibly refreshing! Removing those roadblocks that have hindered my closeness with God has been an experience that is changing me. I wouldn’t say I had an addiction to any of those sources of media, and Facebook frankly is hardly even missed, but it has lead me to more time in the Word, prayer, and self-examination. In particular one of the gifts that I have been given that I have put aside is music. As my sister said, ‘look at what you find when you quit Facebook’. Or perhaps, ‘look at what you find when you remove the unnecessary noise from your life’.

I don’t think there is anything inherently wrong with Facebook, and I don’t think there is anything wrong with television; however it’s up to everyone individually to determine if it is beginning to eclipse their walk with God. For me, it was.

I have rediscovered one of my most dear gifts, and that is my musical ability. I have put down my instruments for about 15 years and for the first time have begun to rediscover the love I have with music. I love the fact that my children hear music in the house, and my 5 year old daughter is an absolutely joy to watch as she dances and sings with daddy. Also however, I hear my Heavenly Father singing and exulting over me!

The LORD your God is in your midst,
                                a mighty one who will save;
                he will rejoice over you with gladness;
                                he will quiet you by his love;
                he will exult over you with loud singing.
(Zephaniah 3:17 ESV)

Do you realize your God rejoices over you? He most certainly does! How amazing and humbling to know the God of the universe loves us emotionally as well! He loves you! He rejoices over you! He quiets you with His love! He sings over you! God is the ultimate Musician!

My trials and challenges in this world haven’t disappeared, yet I am learning to meet them with so much more peace and joy in my life. I am amazed at how much noise I have put between me and my God through avenues like Facebook, or television, or others. I consciously chose not to fast from food this season as He wasn’t leading me in that direction. As always He knows what we need, as this time of fasting that started out a bit difficult for me has led me to a place that I don’t want to leave; and I don’t plan to.

I’m excited to use my gifts (which have been hidden for far too long) to give Him glory! It may be simply be filling my house with music, it may be playing at my church, it may be bringing this gift to a nearby shelter, prison, or assisted living home, and just sharing the joy of music. Whatever He leads me to I’m excited as I will know one thing for sure, it’s not of me!

Thank You Father for your patience with me. Thank You for blessing me with not only the gift of music, but peace, love, and joy. Continue to call me, and may my ears be open to Your call. I don’t want a life that is about me, I want a life that brings You glory. Whenever I let go of self and let You direct my steps I am continually blessed beyond description; even if I can’t see it at the time with my nearsightedness. Thank You for singing over me and rejoicing over me! You are Holy, Holy, Holy, and while we were still sinners, Your Son died for us.

Praise God!
~Matthew

More than words ...

2011-04-05T13:28:00.001-04:00

In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God. (John 1:1 ESV)

We as believers often speak about the Word being alive and speaking to us as we open our Bibles. However I have far too often read it as a book, not the very live Word of God. God and the Word are one; He didn't speak, He is speaking. Tozer writes:

"I believe that much of our religious unbelief is due to a wrong conception of and a wrong feeling for the Scriptures of Truth. A silent God suddenly began to speak in a book and when the book was finished lapsed back into silence again forever. Now we read the book as the record of what God said when He was for a brief time in a speaking mood. With notions like that in our heads how can we believe? The facts are that God is not silent, has never been silent. It is the nature of God to speak. " - A.W. Tozer

When I open up my Bible may I remember that I'm not just trying to apply a stagnant piece of Scripture written log ago to shape me. Rather God is speaking to me in that very moment; guiding me, loving me, instructing me, and showing me His Will for my life. When I underline that passage that jumps off the page to me, may I realize that He just spoke to me in a very real and present way.

Father, help me to realize that Your Word is alive and active in my life. Let my mind and heart be open to your teaching and shaping. May I lay down my will at your feet and openly walk as you command. May I use Your Word as a guide and learn to be in communion with You through prayer. Thank You for Your Word; thank You for being the Word. Amen.

~Matthew

The Author of Life

2011-04-04T22:59:00.001-04:00

There were a few things that stood out to me in Acts 3 tonight (I copied the chapter at the bottom of this entry if you're interested):

1) Peter's audience that he addressed weren't the only ones who killed the "Author of life" (verse 15); my sin combined with God's love for me is why He was hanging on that tree. He didn't have to come, but God's love is far greater than my sin could ever be. The Author of life ... died for me.

2) The fact that the beggar who was restored to "perfect health" (verse 16) still was given Peter's hand to help him rise (verse 7) says something. I think I could probably write two pages on that alone from different perspectives, but I know one thing; it says something significant. I don't just see a miracle here, I see discipleship.

3) "times of refreshing" (verse 20) means something very different than R&R. The more I worship, the more I serve, and the more I submit are the times I feel Spiritually refreshed. It's peace, and it's the kind of peace that Paul speaks of when he's in chains. That peace that some have in the midst of turmoil around them.

4) I also saw a healing of a beggar that didn't ask for it. Strange at first, until I saw how God was glorified in not only the beggar's reaction, but the crowd that got to hear the Gospel. I see a moment that was used to witness. This healing didn't make a beggar walk, it saved souls!

Father, thank you for how you reveal Yourself in Your Word. May I learn to meditate on It and let It transform me, and not just inform me. Continue to light my path so it leads to you, and make me bold to have confidence in sharing everything you freely offer. Your salvation you freely give along with the love, peace, and joy it comes with is not something you want me to keep to myself; may my eyes be open to the opportunities You give me so that I can share them. In Jesus' precious name I pray. Amen.

Now Peter and John were going up to the temple at the hour of prayer, the ninth hour. And a man lame from birth was being carried, whom they laid daily at the gate of the temple that is called the Beautiful Gate to ask alms of those entering the temple. Seeing Peter and John about to go into the temple, he asked to receive alms. And Peter directed his gaze at him, as did John, and said, “Look at us.” And he fixed his attention on them, expecting to receive something from them. But Peter said, “I have no silver and gold, but what I do have I give to you. In the name of Jesus Christ of Nazareth, rise up and walk!” And he took him by the right hand and raised him up, and immediately his feet and ankles were made strong. And leaping up he stood and began to walk, and entered the temple with them, walking and leaping and praising God. And all the people saw him walking and praising God, and recognized him as the one who sat at the Beautiful Gate of the temple, asking for alms. And they were filled with wonder and amazement at what had happened to him.
While he clung to Peter and John, all the people, utterly astounded, ran together to them in the portico called Solomon's. And when Peter saw it he addressed the people: “Men of Israel, why do you wonder at this, or why do you stare at us, as though by our own power or piety we have made him walk? The God of Abraham, the God of Isaac, and the God of Jacob, the God of our fathers, glorified his servant Jesus, whom you delivered over and denied in the presence of Pilate, when he had decided to release him. But you denied the Holy and Righteous One, and asked for a murderer to be granted to you, and you killed the Author of life, whom God raised from the dead. To this we are witnesses. And his name—by faith in his name—has made this man strong whom you see and know, and the faith that is through Jesus has given the man this perfect health in the presence of you all.
“And now, brothers, I know that you acted in ignorance, as did also your rulers. But what God foretold by the mouth of all the prophets, that his Christ would suffer, he thus fulfilled. Repent therefore, and turn again, that your sins may be blotted out, that times of refreshing may come from the presence of the Lord, and that he may send the Christ appointed for you, Jesus, whom heaven must receive until the time for restoring all the things about which God spoke by the mouth of his holy prophets long ago. Moses said, ‘The Lord God will raise up for you a prophet like me from your brothers. You shall listen to him in whatever he tells you. And it shall be that every soul who does not listen to that prophet shall be destroyed from the people.’ And all the prophets who have spoken, from Samuel and those who came after him, also proclaimed these days. You are the sons of the prophets and of the covenant that God made with your fathers, saying to Abraham, ‘And in your offspring shall all the families of the earth be blessed.’ God, having raised up his servant, sent him to you first, to bless you by turning every one of you from your wickedness.”
(Acts 3 ESV)

Looking through His lens

2011-03-29T22:41:00.002-04:00

I recently had a friend of mine bring up something to share with me about my leadership skills that I could work on. While there was a quick moment of the flesh trying to get defensive, I quickly realized how all of this is done out of love. You see, my friend, a dear brother, truly is seeking to build me up. This issue that was highlighted was in no way discussed with any other purpose than to strengthen me, my walk, and my skills and abilities as a leader. We are supposed to sharpen each other, but not in accountability through judgement, but rather accountability through love. I am so thankful that Christ has brought individuals like this into my life; what a blessing.

I was reminded of this today when I read this passage:

For godly grief produces a repentance that leads to salvation without regret, whereas worldly grief produces death. (2 Corinthians 7:10 ESV)

It reminded me of how I should respond when I am sharpened; after all, you can't truly sharpen a blade without some friction, force, and sometimes even some serious heat. Grief is what happened when I was in that moment; I was grieved when I heard something critical about me. I could either choose to respond in a worldly way (get defensive and shut down) or respond in a godly way (change with eagerness). I walked away from that conversation not feeling deathly, but alive and ready to try and work on those areas the next chance I got.

I did, and it felt awesome to see how much more it blessed not only me, but others around me!

A few days later, I didn't do so well! However I recognize it, and while it's easy to let the enemy get in and make me condemn myself, it's a process. I am going to be a better leader because He is helping me do that and He is using people like my brothers and sisters in Christ.

I'm not defeated, I'm energized! May I continue to be grieved; but yet in a godly way, not in a worldly way letting the enemy get a foothold and destroy my growth.

Energized and Changing for Him! Not because I have to, but because I want to!

Looking at my growth through His lens, not the worlds'
~Matthew

Empty Me

2011-03-24T12:14:00.001-04:00

I want to lead a life that is not consisting of a few relationships, but is rather defined by relationship. I think however that all too often I try to figure out what discipleship looks like to me, rather than what discipleship looks like to others that relate to me. Paul writes:

For though I am free from all, I have made myself a servant to all, that I might win more of them.
(1 Corinthians 9:19 ESV)

May my walk with the Lord help me to understand how to live out a life of discipleship by servitude. I want to be a friend that when others see me they see Christ. Not from my works of course, but from a heart that reflects Christ's servitude. May I continue to learn how to die to self, of which holds me back from a full life that He wants for me. Oh the joy that I could experience by being a tool used by Christ to find a lost sheep and lead them to His cross!

I am reminded of the lyrics:

Empty me

Of the selfishness inside

Every vain ambition

And the poison of my pride

And any foolish thing my heart holds to

Lord empty me of me

So i can be

Filled with you

(Chris Sligh, Empty Me)

Lord, help me to die to self; I am not my own, but Yours bought by a price I can never earn. Thank You for Grace!

~Matthew

Reading Scripture for Me

2011-03-24T10:43:00.001-04:00

Paul wrote in an earlier letter to the church in Corinth to be careful and not associate with sinful individuals, and become unequally yoked with them. However he clarified in another letter that he was speaking not of everyone, but rather those in the church that called themselves a brother yet hung on to some sins; especially those sins that pull you and others away from the Cross. It was a critical time for the church as foundations were being laid, and if those foundations were not in Christ the church itself would quickly be pulled away from the Gospel that Christ preached and turn itself into a cultural club. The church needed to remain pure and recognize sin. He wrote:

I wrote to you in my letter not to associate with sexually immoral people— not at all meaning the sexually immoral of this world, or the greedy and swindlers, or idolaters, since then you would need to go out of the world. But now I am writing to you not to associate with anyone who bears the name of brother if he is guilty of sexual immorality or greed, or is an idolater, reviler, drunkard, or swindler—not even to eat with such a one.
(1 Corinthians 5:9-11 ESV)

What was convicting to me however was that as I read through this passage my mind started drifting towards others, and how it applied to them; but not me. I needed to stop thinking about whom I shouldn't associate with, but instead start thinking about my walk. Should others not associate with me because of the path I am choosing? It was a powerful reminder to me that I need to continually abide in Him to continue my ongoing sanctification. The minute I take my eyes off my walk, and concern myself with others, I am risking a lot.

Loving Christ and feeling renewed daily!
~Matthew

Amazing Gifts

2011-03-22T23:06:00.001-04:00

these things God has revealed to us through the Spirit. For the Spirit searches everything, even the depths of God. For who knows a person's thoughts except the spirit of that person, which is in him? So also no one comprehends the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God. Now we have received not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, that we might understand the things freely given us by God.
(1 Corinthians 2:10-12 ESV)

I think that the Holy Spirit is the most difficult One of the Holy Trinity to fully grasp. To me it's not very difficult to see a Creator (the Father for discussion purposes) with all that is around us by using both science and logic. Christ to me takes a bit more of a step of faith as although we have historical accounts of His works and even Resurrection (or 'unexplained magic' by some early non-believing scholars) and life changing testimonies, it's perhaps more difficult for some to grasp. However when we get to the Spirit it begins to get far less tangible. Yes we have some visual and physical documented events such as Pentecost, but for the most part, the Holy Spirit is seen in personal testimonies and life changing events from believers.

If the Father doesn't exist we don't have a Creator, and if Christ doesn't exist we don't have a Savior, however if the Spirit doesn't exist we wouldn't even be able to commune with God and even have a chance at understanding His Will for us. Prayer would be pointless, and His will for me would be lost in my own battle of self-love.

Christ didn't die "For me."

Christ died "For me ... to go and serve, worship, bring Him glory and find His lost sheep and lead them to the cross."

May I not love the Father, Serve His son, but forget to treasure and 'use' this amazing gift of His Spirit.

Father, I thank you for sending your son to not only die for my sins, justly punishable by death, but for sending Your Spirit to guide me, teach me, convict me, and allow me to communicate with You. I deserve nothing, yet I am full of joy! Reveal to me the path You have planned for me so that You can use me to reach Your lost sheep.

Yours,

~Matthew

Playing a Game of Semantics with God

2011-03-15T14:43:00.001-04:00

So we're at the dinner table and my 8 year old son is talking to my 4 year old daughter and having a fun conversation. However, often it turns from having a fun conversation to chaos quite quickly! I don't care about talking at the dinner table, but it’s not a time to get out of your seat, chase another, scream, and play games.

I'm sure I'm the only one who deals with this right?!

So then I have to settle things down. "Sit down, no talking until you finish eating!"

So now my son sits down and stops talking, but the chaos doesn't always stop. Dad said 'no talking' so that means that making silly faces until my sister is laughing hysterically is ok right? Making other more creative sounds with my mouth other than talking is ok right?

Again, I'm sure I'm the only one who deals with this right?!

He's playing a game of semantics with my instruction. I don't do that right?

Unfortunately that's not the case with me. Too often I find myself in prayer telling God that I will work on something, when later I seem to find loopholes in my promise. "Well, I didn't say I would tackle that

Why did I come to God in the first place? For help in making me more like His Son. However I can hardly be made into the image of Christ when I keep finding loopholes around the very things I want to fix and came to Him with in the first place!

I need to stop playing semantics with God ... it only hurts me, and slows down my journey. It's not a matter of being better, it's a matter of knowing and loving Him more and all the joy and blessings that come from that relationship.

Abiding in Him,

~Matthew

Does the tree know how beautiful it is? No.

2011-03-15T14:17:00.001-04:00

In the world there are "the works of the flesh," in the Church, "the fruit of the Spirit" (Gal. 5:19; Eph. 5:9). What does fruit mean in this context? There are many works of the flesh, but only one fruit of the Spirit. Works are done by human hands, fruit thrusts upward and grows all unbeknown to the tree which bears it. Works are dead, fruit is alive, and bears the seed which will bring forth more fruit. Works can subsist on their own, fruit cannot exist apart from the tree. Fruit is always the miraculous, the created; it is never the result of willing, but always a growth. The fruit of the Spirit is a gift of God, and only he can produce it. They who bear it know as little about it as the tree knows of its fruit. They know only the power of him on whom their life depends. There is no room for boasting here, but only for an ever more intimate union with him. The saints are unconscious of the fruit they bear. - Dietrich Bonhoeffer, The Cost of Discipleship

This insight from Dietrich was very powerful to me. It tied back to his earlier point of truly having your left hand unaware what your right is doing.

"But when you give to the needy, do not let your left hand know what your right hand is doing" (Matthew 6:3 ESV)

You can't hide your faith, and in fact, as I already shared, it's impossible. A city on a hill can not be hidden; not shouldn't, it can't. If we have the light of Christ in us it should be beaming. However so often we want to take our own reigns, even in the guise of good works, and thus we quench the Spirit.

If I choose to do a good work, so be it, but it's not fruit. I need to trust that the more I remain in Him I am bearing good fruit. Only others around me can see it, and I will not go in search of a spiritual mirror to check my fruit status as that's not the point. Besides, all of my good works together combine to something as filthy of menstrual rags compared to God. Why compare? Works don't stack up ...

We have all become like one who is unclean,
and all our righteous deeds are like a polluted garment.
We all fade like a leaf,
and our iniquities, like the wind, take us away.
(Isaiah 64:6 ESV)

Abide. All I must concern myself with is that I am abiding in Him.

Abiding in Him,
~Matthew

I can do it all by myself!

2011-03-15T13:09:00.001-04:00

In John 17, which I believe is Jesus' longest prayer, He was about to face the biggest trial of His human existence; what everything was leading up to. Though His disciples didn't know it, He certainly did. So His response in preparation before this? He submitted and laid Himself at the feet of His father and His will.

I wonder when a trial is coming in my life, if I focus on getting things in order from a worldly perspective, or if I do what I can, and they lay my life down at His feet and say "Father, do with me as You will."

May I learn to face trials more like Christ.

There is no "I" in Selfless (or me either)

2011-03-10T22:29:00.001-05:00

I think the word 'selfless' needs some serious resurrecting in our culture today.

"If the world despises one of the brethren, the Christian will love and serve him. If the world does him violence, the Christian will succour and comfort him. If the world dishonours and insults him, the Christian will sacrifice his own honour to cover his brother's shame. Where the world seeks gain, the Christian will renounce it. Where the world exploits, he will dispossess himself, and where the world oppress, he will stoop down and raise up the oppressed. If the world refuses justice, the Christian will pursue mercy, and if the world takes refuge in lies, he will open his mouth for the dumb, and bear testimony to the truth." - Dietrich Bonhoeffer, The Cost of Dicipleship

I wish that paragraph represented me; how humble and amazing a life would be lived like that. To truly live with selfless nature, to truly think of your brother before you are concerned about yourself, is just so ... different ... from what we've been taught.

Often when I go spend any decent amount of time at my family's cottage I come back to the city and am just amazed at how noisy the world is. Not just with audible noise, though that is certainly an issue too, but just the noise of being so busy. So much noise and I find myself wrapped up in it days after I return. So quickly the world tries to teach me that it's all about me and my agenda all over again; God is secondary (at the best) in our culture today.

"For where jealousy and selfish ambition exist, there will be disorder and every vile practice." (James 3:16 ESV)

I want to be that brother mentioned above by Dietrich. However I will be honest, it scares me. Serving God is one thing, but serving others is another isn't it? I can much more easily serve my Lord than I can serve my brother. I suppose in a world where tangibility is thriving, that serving a brother may be easier in some ways, but when it comes to putting someone first in a difficult situation, we often want to protect ourselves first.

It's not completely foreign however. There are even professions such as the secret service (and military for that matter) that will voluntarily take a bullet (literally) for another out of duty. Imagine if we all were attempting to take the bullet for another one of God's children; what a different world it would be.

I learned about being a team as a kid ... imagine if it went beyond the game.

His,
~Matthew

Taking Credit

2011-03-10T21:44:00.001-05:00

There have been times either at work, in my personal life, or other areas where I have felt that my efforts were ignored; or worse yet, someone took credit for them. I'm sure we have all been there at one point or another. You put all this effort in to a project or task, only to be left hearing others either directly or indirectly take credit for your work. It's unnerving, and at times leaves me feeling bitter and frustrated.

I would never do that to someone else, especially God right?

"Any honours that come our way are only stolen from him to whom alone they really belong, the Lord who sent us." - Dietrich Bonhoeffer, The Cost of Dicipleship

This quote from the book I'm reading really hit me hard. Not because of the how I see others do it, but because of how true it is for me. Reminds me of the song I sing worshiping Him as the words come out of my mouth "every blessing You pour out I'll turn back to praise". Really Matt?

I wonder how many times I've accepted praises for a job well done and have ignored the One who helped me?

Don't read this thinking I feel burdened with guilt, because I don't. If anything I feel released from the chains that have been holding me down. The more I see Him working in my life, the more amazed I feel; but I do want to change.

What's amazing is that we steal His credit so often, yet He continues to love us and yearns to embrace us regardless.

"And he arose and came to his father. But while he was still a long way off, his father saw him and felt compassion, and ran and embraced him and kissed him. " (Luke 15:20 ESV)

Aren't hugs great? Especially from the Almighty God!? :)

~Matthew

Using the Opportunities

2011-02-23T15:46:00.001-05:00

This isn't a journal entry that I'm real happy about sharing but I have a feeling at least some of you may be able to relate. So the phone rings last week and I find out that my wife was in a car accident. She thankfully tells me that she and the kids are fine, but because she hit the trailer hitch on the guy in front of her (who stopped suddenly to avoid a pothole) that his truck was fine, but the hitch smashed the light, shattered the grill, and pushed in the steel front bumper on our van among other damage. First of all this journal entry isn't about sympathy; thank you Jesus as I have the money and my family is fine, enough said ... right?

Well that's the problem with the way my stupid brain works sometimes. If she would have called (or sadly I got the news from someone else) that they were seriously injured, I wouldn't have cared about the vehicle one bit. My conversation would have been along the lines of "Honey, I'll be right there, who cares about the van."

However since they were all fine, suddenly it turns into a big frustrated mess in my head. I'm thinking we're heading out for vacation, light smashed, I wasn't planning on cash for a repair, yada yada yada ...

Now granted, I recognized these thoughts and I didn't sit there and vent at my wife, but I was frustrated and I'm sure she felt it. I put my wife in a lose-lose position; she either gets hurt, or has to hear frustration from me if she's not. What I love about our marriage is that I can talk to her about this, share my messed up thinking, and let her know that I am not blaming her. Yet it still doesn't fix my mind.

I could probably quote a litany of verses about how I should be thinking and what I should be focusing on, so to me it's not about knowledge of what to do, it's about prayer. It's a simple reminder of my fallen nature, and why prayer is so important in this process of transformation. It's not about head knowledge, it's about the transformation of the mind, and the long journey from there to the heart.

Thank You Father for making me aware of my opportunities to be more like You.

"For you were called to freedom, brothers. Only do not use your freedom as an opportunity for the flesh, but through love serve one another." (Galatians 5:13 ESV)

~Matthew

Playing in the Sand

2011-02-23T15:26:00.001-05:00

“Everyone then who hears these words of mine and does them will be like a wise man who built his house on the rock." (Matthew 7:24 ESV)

Often as believers we talk about standing on The Rock that is in Christ, and we often reference the passage above which compares and contrasts a believer versus a non-believer who built his house on the sand. However, to state that I stand on The Rock isn't quite the point, and I would argue misses the point entirely. We could certainly get into a discussion over semantics and perhaps agree on the overall point, but I need to get the picture out of my head of me standing on The Rock. The picture that needs to be in my head is me living on the rock.

The man in the parable didn't vacation to The Rock. The man in the parable didn't take a stroll out to spend some time on The Rock. The man in the parable didn't decide one day to camp out on The Rock for a few days. The man in the parable built his house on It, he lived on It, he built his life around It.

May I not forget the basics of my faith by painting pictures that seem powerful, but aren't life changing. To stand doesn't require much effort, but to construct a permanent dwelling place does. I don't want to be standing on a rock while still playing in the sand.

Laying my foundation on His,
~Matthew

Defining Abundance

2011-02-14T23:51:00.001-05:00

I was reading through Psalm 105 tonight with my wife and a particular passage really got me thinking about a few things; mostly about how we define abundance. According to dictionary.com it defines the word as "an extremely plentiful or oversufficient quantity or supply". Interesting, not surprising to any of us probably, but interesting.

They asked, and he brought quail, and gave them bread from heaven in abundance. He opened the rock, and water gushed out; it flowed through the desert like a river. (Psalm 105:40-41 ESV)

He didn't just give them some bread, He gave in abundance.
He didn't just give them some water, He gave in abundance.

This passage made me go back to Exodus. As I read through the account of the Israelites, I didn't get a feeling that they really understood this as an abundance. Looking back at the story, many wanted the abundance now, not tomorrow, but now. From God's perspective he gave them "an oversufficient quantity" multiple times over, however to them, they were so concerned about tomorrow that they I really don't think they realized what God was giving them today.

Perhaps looking back on their journey from our position they could say, yes, look at that, God gave us more than we could even use; an abundance. However to them at that time, they were so nearsighted that they didn't realize the blessings that were overflowing right in front of them.

Phew! Glad I'm never like that!

Oh wait.

Why do we do that? We know He provides, and many of us believers have had a chance to experience in one way or another His abundant blessings. However we still worry so much about tomorrow, or think what we have today isn't enough. Being content isn't some new secular or unitarian worldview, it's Biblical to the core.

Next time when my cup is overflowing and He continues to pour, may I look to Him with childlike laughter and say, OK dad, it's enough!

Perhaps that's why He made waterfalls ... to remind us of our blessings that are overflowing ...

His,
~Matthew

Ear Muffs

2011-02-13T22:26:00.001-05:00

Philip found Nathanael and said to him, “We have found him of whom Moses in the Law and also the prophets wrote, Jesus of Nazareth, the son of Joseph.” Nathanael said to him, “Can anything good come out of Nazareth?” Philip said to him, “Come and see.” (John 1:45-46 ESV)

I've always loved the call of Nathanael; the rawness of the human reaction always seems to speak to me. You can look at it as racial or cultural tension with those from Nazareth, or simply as doubt and skepticism. However either case captures many of us when we come face to face with the possible Truth of Jesus Christ. We may have faced it in our past, currently face it, or know others of the same. It's a beautiful story, one worth sharing, but may when faced with it simply reply in jest; "Really, that's what you want me to believe?"

So much is captured in just a couple verses, and the few verses that follow capture even more in my opinion:

Jesus saw Nathanael coming toward him and said of him, “Behold, an Israelite indeed, in whom there is no deceit!” Nathanael said to him, “How do you know me?” Jesus answered him, “Before Philip called you, when you were under the fig tree, I saw you.” Nathanael answered him, “Rabbi, you are the Son of God! You are the King of Israel!” Jesus answered him, “Because I said to you, ‘I saw you under the fig tree,’ do you believe? You will see greater things than these.” (John 1:47-50 ESV)

There is something going on here far more than Nathanael being impressed that Jesus saw him under a fig tree that I assume must have been difficult or impossible for him to have seen him otherwise. However there is no dialog between Philip and Nathanael (who introduced them) asking about this seemingly amazing incident. There is no pause wondering how it happened. There is no doubt. Where did the skeptic go?

There is something about standing face to face with the Creator of the universe that even if you don't know it ... you know it.

Since I use this as a journal, my question now is how does this apply to me?

I think my application in this lies in something far greater than anything I can come up with on my own. I've been feeling for a while now (and to be honest this is a little bit scary) that God has been preparing me for something big. I don't know what, and I don't know when, but I just feel it. For the last few years I've been on a journey that has been growing, mostly intellectually. However my heart in the last several months has been separated from this world in so many ways. I don't mean isolated, just set more on things of Him, than things of this world.

In SE Michigan as we approach Easter there is a growing movement (hundreds of churches are participating) called EACH (Everyone a Chance to Hear). I think there are many Nathanael's out there, who just need to hear the Truth, or at least are given a chance. I used to worry more about my salvation than others. OK, that's a lie; I used to worry about my salvation, and not care about others. I used to live in spiritual isolation trusting in my eternal home, but being too scared to wander out to lead others to it as well. But that's changing. I think I put on my ear muffs too much, it's time to take them off. God doesn't stop talking, we just stop listening.

Lord, lead me to the Nathanael's out there, and may Your Truth penetrate their soul to advance Your Kingdom.

Soli Deo Gloria,
~Matthew

Thanks in Advance!

2011-02-10T23:25:00.001-05:00

Several times lately the topic of prayer has either come up in conversation or just in my own meditation. Often the question from some, even believers, is why pray for certain outcomes if God is sovereign? After all, if God is sovereign, and His Will ultimately will be done, why do we pray about these things? What's the point?

As I think about this question, two answers pop in my head immediately. For one He tells us to pray and bring our requests to Him, so ultimately that should be enough. After all, the minute I start questioning God on the logistics of His requests then I may as well just ask for the position as creator of the universe and be done with it. However, that often isn't quite the answer that makes me feel completely satisfied with the subject.

The second reason that comes to mind summarizes why I generally pray, and that is to seek the Will of God. In prayer He can and may reveal His Will to us during our time together. My goal when I pray is not to seek the doing of my will, but to seek His Will, and ask how I can be involved in it. Read the passage below as it summarizes exactly what I feel:

But when I thought how to understand this,
it seemed to me a wearisome task,
until I went into the sanctuary of God;
then I discerned their end.
(Psalm 73:16-17 ESV)

We pray for discernment. Some request are easier to pray for in that way and some are more difficult. Sometimes as when asking discernment for a new job opportunity, or a new relationship, or choosing a mission field, it makes sense for us to pray that way. Sometimes, like when we start asking questions about suffering, it can be difficult as we seem to not seek to understand, but to change.

Though the ones I personally struggle with are prayers of healing, at least certain forms of it. Let me be clear, Biblically we are asked to do this, I understand. Likewise we are to pray with persistence and confidence. Not to say that we guarantee healing, but to pray knowing full well that He "can" heal if He wants to. I pray for healing but my prayers are more in the form of discernment. Paraphrasing they're often in the form of "God, if it's in Your Will, heal this individual. May Your glory be seen if this healing occurs, but if not, may You comfort the family and friends and Your love be seen."

Some would say I am not praying with belief in the healing power of Jesus' name, but I disagree with that. I'm not doubting that Christ can or will heal by praying this way, I'm just wanting to be in His will and not assuming that He will heal every single person I pray for. Praying in the words of expectant healing, while biblical, can begin to blur the lines of arrogance if we're not careful in my opinion; something I most certainly do not feel when I'm standing at His throne. Don't get me wrong, if the Spirit is leading you to pray for someone in some particular way, then let Him use you. My point though is that I believe these are more the exceptions than the rule.

This whole concept reminds me of times when I get an e-mail that is signed off, "Thanks in Advance". Isn't that a way of saying, thanks for doing what I'm asking you to do because I'm not giving you another option? I feel like that's what I say to God when I pray that way, "Thanks in advance" to the "Holy, Holy, Holy" God of the Universe.

I just think we need to make sure it is Spirit led and not ritualistic or of the flesh. I love prayer requests (distribution lists and all), prayer meetings, and one-on-one individualized prayer. I just think we need to do more seeking of His will in prayer than assuming it, and that's what I feel we can do sometimes if we're not careful.

Seeking His Will,
~Matthew

Expectations

2011-02-07T22:47:00.001-05:00

Ever notice how you can leave work expecting one thing, and by the time you arrive at home things seem to be quite the opposite? Perhaps I'm the only one. Sometimes I get on the road to find out that it's going to be a long drive because Snowpocolypse II is slowing it down, or simply some driver thought it was in their best interest to create havoc for the rest of us. Perhaps as you drive home you get a call to remind you about that appointment you almost forgot about; and at this rate you wish you had. Perhaps when you walk in the door it's not quite like the Cleavers, but more like the Rebel Alliance is making it's final stand against the Empire with light sabers swinging. My point is that you have expectations, and they change; or get changed for you.

So speaking about expectations ...

Not one word of all the good promises that the LORD had made to the house of Israel had failed; all came to pass. (Joshua 21:45 ESV)

I think this passage is all the more interesting if you recall the history. The Israelites finally got to the promised land, but due to their lack of faith (except from Caleb and Joshua) they were told to go pound sand for 40 more years before they could enter. In essence, until the unbelieving generation died off, they wouldn't be allowed entry. Well, that is except for Caleb and Joshua, however they had to wait that 40 years as well. Do you think it matched their expectations? Hardly if you ask me.

However that verse is that much more beautiful knowing that history. Amidst the trials and delay, Joshua still recognized that His will was done, regardless of how it played out. I don't see it's about time in these words from the passage above; I see thank You. Read them again if you need to.

Thank You Lord for fulfilling those promises even when I'm expecting things to go a different way. May I learn to close each day and open each day with a word of thanks to You. Ultimately, may Your Will alone become my expectation.

Yours,

~Matthew

Intoxicated

2011-02-05T23:03:00.001-05:00

You don't get drunk by staring at the bottle, you get drunk by taking it in. The bottle has something that when you drink it, intoxicates you. Of course we all know the obvious and that is because of the alcohol. However the Bible also talks about another type of intoxication.

"Let your fountain be blessed, and rejoice in the wife of your youth, a lovely deer, a graceful doe. Let her breasts fill you at all times with delight; be intoxicated always in her love." (Proverbs 5:18-19 ESV)

When you look at the word intoxicated you get the Hebrew word (transliterated) shagah. Among the possible definitions (determined by context) is to wander; I like to see this as lost or mesmerized. This isn't the word shakab, which is much more sexually oriented, this is about something much deeper.

Going back to my first point about that bottle and the action of drinking. You have to take it in, and there has to be something in the bottle to begin with. Likewise there has to be some transfer done between my wife and I. If she is shutting down (putting the cap on the bottle) and/or I'm not drinking it in, shagah isn't going to happen.

However that shutting down I would imagine can be fixed pretty easily by simply backing up a verse. If I am rejoicing in my wife, expressing to her my love for her, and my attraction to her, I really don't think that there will be as much shutting down. Bitterness, dissension, and being critical of her very well may, and rightfully so. Why would she want to let me share in that intoxicating love that she is holding when I'm treating her with disrespect?

It was great reading this together with her tonight. We talk about anything and everything together and it's always fruitful (even if it doesn't seem so at the time). Oh, we have our disagreements, but it's this open communication that not only continues to help me rejoice in my wife, but for us to be able to share a love so deep, it's intoxicating.

And FYI, this passage that talks about creating a beautiful marriage is smack in the middle of a chapter that warns us of the sweet call of adultery. Let us keep our marriages strong, better yet, keep them intoxicating ... you don't want to be pub hopping around this issue.

Intoxicated by my wife,
~Matthew

Busyness and Confusion

2011-02-04T14:27:00.002-05:00

Did you ever stop for a moment to look at the items on your metaphorical plate and just feel overwhelmed? Did it ever get piled so high, like this mammoth snowball, that it seems almost unmovable? While some of us may struggle in other ways, I have a feeling I’m not alone in answering yes to both of those questions.

As believers I know that He wants us to be a people of order and focus, and not a people of busyness and confusion. Unfortunately we can easy become over-committed with Kingdom work as well. Perhaps you are getting pulled physically or emotionally to do more in your community, your church, or your mission field. While I think that those things are critical and Kingdom building, I have a habit of taking on too much and thus becoming too unfocused and confused.

“For God is not a God of confusion but of peace.” (1 Corinthians 14:33a ESV)

So when I’m sensing confusion, rather than peace, I know it’s time to sort some things out.

Thus I’m at a point where I need to re-prioritize things as items are coming onto my plate that is already full. I’ve usually been pretty good at making sure I’m not over-committed, but lately it’s been sneaking up on me; thankfully, I have Him to help me with the priorities. Nonetheless, I need to make sure it’s His voice I’m hearing guide me, not mine or the voice of the enemy, which can be guilt disguised as conviction. So this weekend I plan on coming to Him with my full plate, and asking Him to take off what needs to be taken off, leave on what needs to be left on, and fill me with strength to do His will.

I know that I may enter this weekend burdened, but I will leave it free. I may enter this weekend unfocused and confused, but will leave it feeling clear minded and directed. I may enter this weekend without a plan, but will leave it feeling directed by Him. After all, He knows what is best for me.

Seeking His order,

~Matthew

Becoming a Reader

2011-02-01T13:05:00.002-05:00

I've never been an avid reader, and there is no secret about that. I read seldom, especially compared to some readers out there, and I certainly have my share of books that I have started reading and stopped in the middle somewhere. However, that’s about to change. Call this a new year’s resolution or prayerful guidance, but I want to start reading more.

Before I get book any recommendations let me just say I have a clear plan on where I am going. I still will read leisurely on the side purely for entertainment’s sake, however I have a goal (starting now) of reading one non-fiction book a month from a different Christian author. More specifically I have been called to read some of the more prominent Christian authors of the past. After talking with a brother/pastor on some recommendations, he also sent me a link to an article that really captures what I’m after. The article highlighted that very question, and the writer’s response to whom he recommended reading was rather interesting; he wants to read dead people. Here is an excerpt from the article:

"So here’s what I’ve learned. If someone has been dead for a while and his book is still in print and widely read, then it’s probably worth reading. And, if we’re honest, there are precious few books written by Christian authors today that will still be read in 24 months, let alone 24 years. I want to use my reading time to immerse myself in powerfully formative material, and not just flash-in-the-pan trends. Does this mean I never read living authors? No, of course not. But if they’re not dead, I like them to be pretty close. I can usually trust that they’re not going to waste what time they have left on this earth writing sappy Hallmark card sentimental Evangelical fluff." - Skye Jethani, I Read Dead People

So where to start? Well, due to some research (and book availability at my library network) I am starting off with a book from Dietrich Bonhoeffer, the Cost of Discipleship for my February read. His story seems painful, yet incredibly moving. I am eager to see what deep insights I can perhaps learn from his life, as tragically powerful as it was.

As I read through Joshua today, I read about the Gibeonite deception, and how they came to deceive Joshua and the Israelites to make a covenant with them. The way that the Israelites reacted, and sadly seen too often in Scripture, was what follows:

“So the men took some of their provisions, but did not ask counsel from the LORD.” (Joshua 9:14 ESV)

I pray that as I read through these books and stories I remember that like me, all are human and have their own faults. I pray that I will be diligent with coming to Him for counsel as I seek to wash these writings with the Word and reveal their Truth. All of the authors that I plan to read have walked with the Lord longer than I, and will undoubtedly have much to offer for my own journey. Though may I never lift their writings above Scripture, yet thank Him for their service and show me how I can serve Him better myself.

Time to get reading!

~Matthew

Memories

2011-01-29T22:14:00.003-05:00

Pictures are often used as a memorial to me to capture some of my most favorite events. Those beautiful summer days up north at the cottage spent at the beach, amazing camping trips, incredible displays of the Aurora Borealis, meteor showers; all are things that seem to take an important place in my memory. Often pictures can capture that event, or even emotion, forever. However memorials go far beyond a great vacation:

And Joshua said to them, “Pass on before the ark of the LORD your God into the midst of the Jordan, and take up each of you a stone upon his shoulder, according to the number of the tribes of the people of Israel, that this may be a sign among you. When your children ask in time to come, ‘What do those stones mean to you?’ then you shall tell them that the waters of the Jordan were cut off before the ark of the covenant of the LORD. When it passed over the Jordan, the waters of the Jordan were cut off. So these stones shall be to the people of Israel a memorial forever.” (Joshua 4:5-7 ESV)

Many times in Scripture the Lord's people set up memorials, not just to capture the moment for themselves, but to pass along a memory to future generations. We most certainly do have memorials in this country, national memorials even. Some honor an individual, some a group of people, and some a historical event. Yet it is not just a country that should be making memorials, but rather followers of Christ as well.

For me, this journal is helping me do that. It is something that I wish to pass along to my children (in printed form) so that some of these moments that God has blessed me with can be shared with another generation. While we have to be careful not to get legalistic about our behaviors, that shouldn't stop our devotion and worship to Him. If God has done a miraculous work in our life, or if we sense the need to do so, I encourage you (and myself) to make a memorial. Perhaps it's something as simple as grabbing that stone from the river where you met Christ for the first time, or perhaps it's planting a tree to remember your walk in the woods when you broke down in pieces and He met you to put you back together again. Whatever it may be, I hope we all can learn to be a people of memorial.

Think about it. I am.

Remembering,
~Matthew

You Hypocrite! Take of That Disguise!

2011-01-28T13:39:00.002-05:00

I wonder how many people out there would say these words to me, or at least want to one way or another? I wouldn't say this is something that really concerns me as I am confident in who I am, and Who's I am, but I suppose it would be interesting to exercise some thought to this topic. Recently I came across a devotional that touched on this subject and I thought it highlighted some very good points, so I thought I'd take it a step further and make it a bit more specific for me.

I suppose my first response to an accusation like that may be a question in return:

Do you think that weak moments in my life represent who I really am, or do you think that my times in prayer, devotion, worship, and deepest and most heartfelt conversations with my wife, kids, or closest friends would better represent who I really am? When your normally loving child is cranky, mean, or gets in trouble, do you see them as being hypocrites, or rather do you see them as having a bad moment, being too tired, or not their usual self?

My theory is that we seem to think that once we are adults, suddenly that criteria changes. If we see someone at a weak moment, we assume their true character is represented by that moment.

Judgment is so easy isn’t it? I catch one person on a street corner take off his poor man’s coat, hop in a car on the other side of the block and take off, and I suddenly begin to associate all homeless people as a bum like this guy. Or how about the person who calls themselves a Christian but had a weak moment in anger, blew up at someone, cursed at someone, told a coarse joke, experienced road rage, lied to a family member, bought or copied a pirated movie, took some office supplies, was caught watching porn, was seen yelling at their kid, self-medicated with alcohol after a horrible day at work, smiled and said they were doing great when inside they were bitter at the person asking, walked past someone crying, drove past someone clearly in need, didn’t return the extra money they got back for change, I could go on, and on, and on, and on …

None of these are good, and they all are sin. However my point is not to state that these are not problems that need to be addressed, but just to ponder what really defines someone and if we need to determine what it means to qualify someone as a hypocrite. Is our real expectation of a Christian someone that is trying to become more like Christ or someone that actually lives a life as Christ did? I think we hold others to a much higher standard that we ought, certainly higher than ourselves.

While this may not be something that a non-believer will understand, as a believer we need to go to the Word with these questions. When we begin judging and labeling people out of our own opinion, that is sin. God has an opinion on hypocrites, that is certain.

You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye. (Matthew 7:5 ESV)

The point here is that the question itself about determining if someone is being a hypocrite requires judging; we as believers need not even go down that road. If a non-believer is going to judge me, so be it, it’s not my concern. However it’s always a good reminder that being forgiven doesn’t mean we have liberty to abound in sin; we do represent Christ, that much is certain. Let us continue our journey of sanctification and not let the enemy and father of lies get us off track.

A follower of Christ,

~Matthew

Using and Being Used ...

2011-01-27T10:05:00.003-05:00

… in a good way that is!

I love how God uses other people to speak to us sometimes don't you?

I know sometimes when I pray to God I find that He uses another brother or sister to speak the very words I felt Him tell me in prayer; affirmation. After all, being the body, we can be used by Him in any way He sees fit.

I don't know what was going through Joshua's mind as he took the reins from Moses but I love what He revealed to me in the Word last night when I was reading. Three times as God was commissioning Joshua He told him something specific:

Be strong and courageous, for you shall cause this people to inherit the land that I swore to their fathers to give them. Only be strong and very courageous, being careful to do according to all the law that Moses my servant commanded you ... Be strong and courageous. Do not be frightened, and do not be dismayed, for the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.” (Excerpt from Joshua 1:6-9 ESV)

I don't think Joshua was feeling very strong or courageous at all, else he wouldn't need to hear those words. I imagine his uncertainty and anxiety over taking this roll was getting pretty stressful, and encouragement is what he needed.

So just a little later in the chapter, as Joshua is standing before the people (probably feeling a bit overwhelmed) he gets to hear this …

And they answered Joshua, “All that you have commanded us we will do, and wherever you send us we will go ... Only be strong and courageous.” (Excerpt from Joshua 1:16-18 ESV)

Isn't that awesome!? I try and imagine myself as Joshua hearing and feeling these words coming from God; be strong and be courageous. If he was anything like me at all, and since we share a little thing called humanity I’m guessing he was, then he probably had some doubts about his strength. Then he gets to stand in front of the people, and hear them get behind him and the Lord, but yet just asking that their leader be these couple things: strong, and courageous. I don’t know about you but that clear type of affirmation would most certainly help my strength and courage.

Many times it’s not that clear though is it? Yet, many times it is, we’re just not hearing it. We do need to make sure we wash everything with the Word, and test it by the Spirit in prayer, but God clearly uses others. He did then, He does now; I wonder who He will use next. I wonder if I will be used next.

Listening,

~Matthew

Seeing the Horizon

2011-01-25T22:52:00.003-05:00

"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path." (Psalm 119:105, ESV)

When I used to read this verse it gave me a wonderful visual of how the Word is a light for our journey, and how with It we can have this bright light shining the way as we walk. However that's not really what it says does it? I used to picture this passage as a way to show me that we can have a clear view ahead so long as we have and consult His Word, much like Cathan is casting his vision towards the horizon in the photograph. However that's not what it says does it?

It takes me back to a time earlier this year as we were camping. The sun set, the cold came in, and together, all five of us, we set out on our nighttime walk. I took and lit our Coleman lantern, and we were off. The sky was clear, but it was dark, very dark! In fact, after we walked along the beach and began to take the trails through the woods, the lantern wasn't exactly lighting up the town!

However what it did do was become a lamp to our feet, and a light to our path. We needed it to take each step; without it we were practically blind. If I really used it to the best of my ability I may be able to see 20 to 30 feet ahead of me, but beyond that, it was a mystery, a dark empty space of uncertainty. Even as an adult, I quickly realized as we walked further into the woods how dependant I really was on this lamp.

Likewise, His Word isn't going to give us all the answers we want when it comes to the great unknown called the future. We may know some ultimate Truths, like I knew that eventually the journey would come to an end, and I would be back in the camper. However, during the journey, much like the lamp, we need to lean on Him every step of the way. He will guide our steps ... one at a time.

"Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path." (Psalm 119:105, ESV)

The visual I have now of this verse isn't quite as blinding, but it's far more comforting. A God that lights up the horizon is powerful indeed, but a God that is next to me, guiding me, holding my hand every step of the way, and making me aware of only what I need to as it comes up is not just powerful, but amazingly loving and personal. What a God we have ...

Taking one step at a time,
~Matthew

This party is off the chain!

2011-01-24T09:39:00.002-05:00

OK, I guess I feel a little bad about scaring Amelia here, but I was apparently just preparing for this blog years later! It was a little funny though ... =)

I remember one time my youngest daughter (3 at the time I think) told me as she was going to bed that Jesus was coming back in 40 hours! I have to admit, after a few chuckles and smiles I had the thought ... Wow. What if?

I even texted a few close friends and family members to let them know of the cute and interesting moment; my responses were wide and varied. Some weren't too thrilled at the reality of that if it was true, and one was pondering the fact that when the text came through they were watching Hell's Kitchen and wondered if that was a bad omen! However another simply replied, "Thank you Jesus!"

So with those stories I've often reflected on the idea of Jesus coming back to us like a thief in the night. I would imagine any of us who have spent any time in the Scriptures have came across that idea, but let me bring up a few of those verses so at least we're all on the same page.

But know this, that if the master of the house had known in what part of the night the thief was coming, he would have stayed awake and would not have let his house be broken into. Therefore you also must be ready, for the Son of Man is coming at an hour you do not expect. (Matthew 24:43-44 ESV)

"But know this, that if the master of the house had known at what hour the thief was coming, he would not have left his house to be broken into. You also must be ready, for the Son of Man is coming at an hour you do not expect.” (Luke 12:39-40 ESV)

For you yourselves are fully aware that the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night.

(1 Thessalonians 5:2 ESV)

But the day of the Lord will come like a thief, and then the heavens will pass away with a roar, and the heavenly bodies will be burned up and dissolved, and the earth and the works that are done on it will be exposed. (2 Peter 3:10 ESV)

Remember, then, what you received and heard. Keep it, and repent. If you will not wake up, I will come like a thief, and you will not know at what hour I will come against you. (Revelation 3:3 ESV)

It's very clear from Scripture as you can see that we will not know the time when He will return. I don't know where your heart is in this but for me it used to be a little troubling. Obviously the point is that we should be ready, but I used to look at this idea as very threatening and unwelcoming. After all, a thief is not someone you even want in your house at all. Granted, these passages talk about the day and time itself and how He will be coming, not about character; it's about His timing, not about comparing His character to a thief. The verse in Revelation does indeed talk more about judgement itself, however the context is about a specific church that was once alive, but is now dead. It speaks of God's desired repentance for the church so that this event will not have to end the way it is heading.

However, the point of this journal entry for me was to capture my thoughts as I continued to read through that fifth chapter of 1 Thessalonians ... a few verses later, after being told that He will come like a thief, you get this:

But you are not in darkness, brothers, for that day to surprise you like a thief. For you are all children of light, children of the day. We are not of the night or of the darkness. (1 Thessalonians 5:4-5 ESV)

For a believer, this may be a surprising moment, but far from something that we should feel as unwelcoming. There are different ways to feel surprised. Are you going to be surprised as if walking into a dark room, seeing the lights flick on, and hearing a loving group of family members and friends shout Surprise; or are you going to be surprised in the way like seconds after you answer that ringing phone and hear the news ... you fall to your knees in tears?

Let our reaction and hope for the news of His arrival not bring anxiety, but simply bring to our lips the words "Thank you Jesus!"

There is a Truth out there; are you ready? I hope so. That way when those lights flick on we get to reach out and hug one another! Talk about a party that brings the words "off the chain" to life! =)

Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. (John 14:6 ESV)

His,
~Matthew

he can't get no, satisfaction ...

2011-01-23T22:22:00.002-05:00

Every once in a while I keep getting called back to read the book of Joel again for one reason or another. Tonight as I read through the first chapter I was struck by a particular verse describing the destruction that a devastating swarm of locusts caused to that regions' wine and grain crops.

"What the cutting locust left, the swarming locust has eaten. What the swarming locust left, the hopping locust has eaten, and what the hopping locust left, the destroying locust has eaten." (Joel 1:4 ESV)

Joel likely isn't describing different types of locusts here, but rather trying to relay the message of total destruction; there is simply nothing left.

The imagery here takes me to a place where I think about my enemies, or even Satan himself. He is not merely concerned about getting us off track, or giving us a few bumps along the way, or even showing us some pain during our journey. He will only be satisfied with total destruction.

It comes to mind that as much as we know the end of the story, he must as well. He knows he will lose the war and be defeated, yet he will be dragging down as many as he can along the way. He doesn't want to give us a few scrapes as we prepare to celebrate eternity with the Father, he wants us keeping him company in the lake of fire.

Lord, may that always be a sobering reminder of the fact that while you have wonderful and amazing plans for me, that my enemy has plans for me as well.

Yours, with bruises and scrapes, but yours,
~Matthew

Alone in the Wilderness

2011-01-20T11:39:00.002-05:00

Through His creation in nature I am often reminded of the plans He has for us. While I was staring at the skyline outside my cottage this weekend, my eye caught a small cluster of leaves, still clinging to the tree. I began thinking about all the wind, snow, and weather that these leaves must have seen, but yet they still cling to that tree.

It seemed quite unusual to me, and it reminded me of how I feel at times. How at times I feel alone in my journey, perhaps not understood by some family, or friends. I sometimes feel that I’m viewed as so different from others that there is a division between me, and the rest of the world.

Yet that most certainly isn’t the case. While we are told that indeed there will be many who fail to come to know Him (Matthew 7:14,22-23) we most certainly are not alone. It’s then that I began to notice other clusters of leaves, and even a few trees that were practically still full of their leaves! We most certainly are not alone, but we still need to cling to the Tree (John 15:5).

I enjoy continuing to find encouragement and symbolism of Him in so many places that I look. In this visual it made me think that while some may see me as a dead leaf, hopelessly clinging to something, I see it as being able to weather a storm and standing with my other brothers and sisters in Christ until the end (Mark 13:13)!

May His amazing peace and encouragement find you today!

~Matthew

“For the gate is narrow and the way is hard that leads to life, and those who find it are few.” (Matthew 7:14 ESV)

“On that day many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?’ And then will I declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness.’”(Matthew 7:22-23 ESV)

“I am the vine; you are the branches. Whoever abides in me and I in him, he it is that bears much fruit, for apart from me you can do nothing.” (John 15:5 ESV)

“And you will be hated by all for my name's sake. But the one who endures to the end will be saved.” (Mark 13:13 ESV)

Some things just don't mix ...

2011-01-13T09:10:00.002-05:00

Something that either through prayer, sermons, or meditation that keeps coming back to me is the Holiness of God. It sort of reminds me of that Clorox commercial, where they compare white, to Clorox white! Every time I think I get a little closer to understanding how holy He is, His appearance just keeps getting whiter; especially compared to my sin stained life.

“The Bible says that God is holy, holy, holy. Not that He is merely holy, or even holy, holy. He is holy, holy, holy. The Bible never says that God is love, love, love, or mercy, mercy, mercy, or wrath, wrath, wrath, or justice, justice, justice. It does say that He is holy, holy, holy, the whole earth is full of His glory.” RC Sproul

I seem to have a reoccurring issue of fear in my life, or possibly more relate-able to others if I use the word anxiety. In my B.C. years it used to cripple me, and often. While I still battle this occasionally, He has helped me learn to lean on Him more through the years. Sometimes the fears are significant, sometimes they’re ridiculous (when it comes to my thankfully ever shrinking issues of hypochondria), and sometimes they are just every day issues.

A couple days ago I took my youngest daughter and my son to their first day of floor hockey. It’s a local recreation league for the kids, all different skill levels, and while they compete it is structured as recreation. A couple years ago, due to lack of volunteers, I decided to coach my son’s team. While he didn’t know it, I was far from comfortable with this idea, I was scared. As social as I seem to others, I really do not like the spotlight on me, let alone conflict, and with excited kids and well, parents, you know how that can go.

I know most of you will either be able to relate with my anxiety about coaching a kids team, or at least understand why (if you don’t freak out yourself). However, I didn’t just do it because no other dads/moms were stepping up, I also did it because of the look and reaction I got from my then 6 year old son when I told him I was going to be his coach; absolutely priceless! Practically bringing a tear to my eye as I write this … ok, literally. Hold on.

Anyway, long story short, I got a little more comfortable, and of course I put on a good front so all the parents were very gracious and thought I did a great job, but inside this was still not in my comfort zone. The following year I didn’t coach, in fact I think I had my wife go the first day so I didn’t have to be guilted into it! J Yet this year, a couple days ago, somehow I am coaching not only my son’s team again, but my daughters! I have been reciting this verse in my head a lot lately:

“for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control.” (2 Timothy 1:7 ESV)

I could look at this as a mission field for me, all these kids that I am able to touch, and perhaps show them a love and excitement that He gives me. However, while I think this is a mission field indeed, it’s me that is being the one touched. Volunteering this time didn’t require the rec worker to ask me 3 times, and I ended up volunteering for both teams. Yet I’m still a little freaked out!

So what does this have to do with the Holiness of God? Well, to me fear is not only not from God, but it is clearly a sin; one I struggle with a lot. What is different about this year from the last time I coached is that a couple years ago that sin was triggering panic, palpitations, etc. I was more worried about the symptoms of my fear, then dealing with the sin itself. When I picture myself standing next to the creator of the universe and He reminds me that He “told me not to fear” it affects the way I think. However, He didn’t just say it like we do here on earth as in a “just get over it” mentality. He gives us the opportunity to come to Him in prayer, and through the Spirit (a very real power) we are able to unload that fear and burden on Him. Easy, no, but He teaches me more all the time how exactly to do that. Learning to use the Spirit reminds me of watching my father learn how to use a computer. On day one I got phone calls that made me want to pull out my hair; now, not so bad! So when I come to my Holy God asking Him to teach me to unload this fear on Him, it’s not easy, but I’m learning more each day, week, year, how to do it.

I don’t have just an anxiety problem, when I stand next to the Holy Living God I have a sin problem, a big one; and one of those sins is called fear. Some things just don't mix, and being holy, and having sin are two of those things for sure.

When I stand next to His Son … I have forgiveness and salvation!

Got Jesus?

Perspective

2011-01-10T00:50:00.002-05:00

Many of us have heard studies, talks, or have reflected ourselves on very familiar passage, usually the one in Matthew, referred to as the Lord's Prayer. There are may ways of looking at it, many perspectives, and many (or maybe all) are great to consider.

Perhaps you (as I) have studied how significant each line is in that prayer and that when taken seriously (as all Scripture should be) it's certainly not a passing phrase, but rather a life changing way to live.

Perhaps you (as I) have heard about various creative studies and prayer structures modeled from it, such as ACTS (Adoration, Confession, Thanksgiving, Supplication) as a way to pray.

Perhaps you (as I) have even talked about certain lines such as our "daily bread", and realized what that truly means.

Perhaps you (as I, just recently as today at church) heard perspectives on that passage to make sure our prayers are bold, and Kingdom focused. Prayers that can change the world, and how we can be a tool used by God to make those things happen!

However, these past few days I have reflected on something a little different that I never really saw; at least not this plainly. First, the Scripture:

“Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name. Your kingdom come, your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven. Give us this day our daily bread, and forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil." (Matthew 6:9-13 ESV)

Here is how I translated it a few days ago in Prayer:

Father, it's about You!
It's about Your Kingdom, not mine.
Forgive me so that I can model You to others.
You are so Holy, even your Name is Holy!
Whatever you want, I will do!
I will help you bring your Kingdom onto this earth!
And while I'm doing your Will, I know You'll protect me.
When credit comes, I'll give You the glory!
You have huge plans, I just want to be a part of them!
As for me, what do I want?
Just give me enough to sustain me one more day.
That way, I can do this all over again tomorrow!
I love You too. :)

Some may see that (my perspective) as a self-centered unloving God. I see that as a Holy God, who is so loving that through His Son forgave a sinful me, and is actually planning to have me be a co-heir to the universe with His Son. What that looks like or even means, God only knows, but it sure sounds pretty good! I'm all in!

Talking about prayer this way reminded me of a quote that I would like to share from a book I'm reading:

"Isn't it ironic that we often pray for God to make us Christlike, but the moment God allows something into our lives that would answer this prayer, we immediately send out a fervent prayer request to all our friends to have that circumstance removed?" - Henry Blackaby, God in the Marketplace

I know we're encouraged to pray for healing, deliverance, the brethren, the unsaved, etc. I know He wants to hear everything from us, and if we have something on our heart, we should share it with Him. However I think that this passage isn't just supposed to show us how to pray, but it's to show us where our priorities should be. It's scary to pray like that though, I know. I can be so focused on my future at times I completely lose sight of Him and His Will for my life.

He's awesome, that's all I can say. He has filled so many voids in my life and continues to amaze me more each day. The least I can do is focus all my attention on Him, and just ask that He'll give me one more day to do it all over again! :)

Loving my Holy God,
~Matthew

Going Back

2011-01-06T14:02:00.002-05:00

Call it growing if you wish, but after a while of going in one direction, you just can’t go back …

I was pondering my faith today; where I’ve been, how I’ve grown, my victories, my failures, my doubts, my sins, my beliefs, my joys; just a lot of pondering. I wonder where I would be if I wouldn’t have first opened that Book, if my heart wasn’t softened to at least being open to the possibility of a creator, a Christ, His Word. I wondered about those little doubts that creep in when I’m reading these incredible stories; did that really happen? I begin to hear voices of critics in my head, some close to me, some imaginary, telling me that even if there was a heaven, that all paths lead to it. That this journey I’m on is a bit extreme, that ultimate Truth is not in Him, or His Word.

Some join me on this journey, some accept me for being on this journey, and some resent me, or at the least roll their eyes. I for one know I’m not on this journey blindly, that much is certain. I was a critic of anything extreme when it came to the Christian faith, and while I certainly seemed to always be open to a Creator, that’s about where it stopped. Science to me was counter to anything Christian; at least that’s where I was. However when I began to ask questions (not about the Christian faith, but about history, creation, science, etc. I began to find things missing). Some say people of faith are weak clutching onto something to give them comfort. Really? I was hardly weak, I was challenging everything I was taught to be true and finding different answers. Heck, forget me, do my brothers and sisters around the globe who are threatened daily because they profess Christ and risk their life to keep Him close seem weak? When I read stories in Scripture of these men and women of God, weak is not a word that comes to mind.

However I digress. This Sunday a friend and pastor said many things that resonated with me, and one in particular I was reminded of during my prayer and pondering was when he simply stated "I know too much to go back". How true that is. It was then that my pondering changed forms … I imagined going back …

I tried to imagine what that would be for me, it’s something I never really pondered. I imagined figuratively (or perhaps even literally) throwing out my Bibles, journals, ending prayer, worship, my church community, etc.

I literally about threw up.

I of course wasn’t considering this, but just trying to picture if I even could; if in fact I know too much to go back. The answer to that question is a resounding, yes! The God who rescued me from a course of destruction, my Counselor, my Leader, Someone with Whom I celebrate and grieve with, Someone with Whom is responsible and deserves all glory for anything in my life, my Source of joy, the One who has taken so much burden off me that I never even knew was there, the One that has showed me the joy in learning to be humble, the One who has bound my marriage into something absolutely incredible, the One who has given me the desire and passion to be a better dad each day, the One that makes me want to give up this garbage I contribute and be a better son, a better brother to my siblings, a better uncle, a better friend, a better Christian … the list can go on, and on.

I just know too much to go back … and what glorious knowledge it is!!! =)

~Matthew

War Games

2011-01-05T11:47:00.002-05:00

I am continually reminded that we as Christians are at war.

As a father, I need to raise an army for Christ, not just children. What kind of leader would I be if I threw my soldiers into battle with no protection and no weapons? What kind of father would I be if I wasn’t preparing my children for the assault they will face (seen and unseen)?

Over-reacting? Jesus Freak? I don’t think so …

I either believe in the Word, or I don’t (and me picking and choosing which passages to follow and which ones not to is included in don’t). Yes, there is the issue of interpretation, but all together throwing things out that we don’t like is not an option (Deu 4:2, Deu 12:32, Pro 30:6, Ecc 3:14, Rev 22:18-19). Besides, if we call ourselves followers of Christ, there are some non-negotiable Truths, as thus, since I do believe and trust in the Word of God, that means to me there is a very real heaven, a very real hell, and a spiritual and physical war out there. Where is the overreaction in not wanting to see my daughter or son in hell?

Am I running around in a panic because I’m worried about my children’s eternity? No, not at all, in fact I’m at peace about my journey and what I’m teaching them; but that doesn’t mean I stop, that’s my point. I need to continue to show (in my life, not just words) that Christ is the foundation of all my joy, peace, and satisfaction; and not to feel loved for what God does for me, but feeling loved by knowing what I can do for Him (thanks John Piper for the beautiful reminder and illustration).

“Finally, be strong in the Lord and in the strength of his might. Put on the whole armor of God, that you may be able to stand against the schemes of the devil. For we do not wrestle against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the cosmic powers over this present darkness, against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly places. Therefore take up the whole armor of God, that you may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand firm. Stand therefore, having fastened on the belt of truth, and having put on the breastplate of righteousness, and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace. In all circumstances take up the shield of faith, with which you can extinguish all the flaming darts of the evil one; and take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God” (Ephesians 6:10-17 ESV)

Raising an army,

~Matthew

Finding those treasures …

2011-01-02T23:28:00.003-05:00

I love when those verses that are familiar to me jump off the page in a new light. I also love when at times it's just simply one word ...

"But I will establish my covenant with you, and you shall come into the ark, you, your sons, your wife, and your sons' wives with you." (Genesis 6:18 ESV)

What so clearly called out to me in that particular verse was the word come. God didn't tell Noah that he should go into the ark, as if to send him off on a journey that would change the face of the earth; He said come into the ark.

My point being that Emmanuel, God with us, while certainly personified with Christ, has still in many ways always been with us long before that. He was certainly with Noah when he told him to come into the ark.

Are you getting the same picture painted in your head that I did? Comforting was the first word that came to mind. One could call it foreshadowing of a future ark yet to come, however doesn’t this reflect His character from beginning to end? He’s always been a living God, active and present in the lives of those who know Him …

Just an observation; I love His Word!

Come to Him!

~Matthew

PS - Yes, we could be critical and do a word study as that Hebrew word (בּוֹא, transliteration to bow') is translated in some English Bibles as enter. However generally speaking I use more literal translations so we'll just stick with the word come!

Missing an Opportunity of Temple Proportions

2010-12-20T00:27:00.002-05:00

Sometimes the most simple words are the most powerful aren't they? These Pharisees and Sadducees who tried to uphold the Law by using any method but love, worship their temple practices with extraordinary religion. Then comes a Man, speaking of Himself, and says:

I tell you, something greater than the temple is here. (Matthew 12:6 ESV)

Without tangenting too much, I know that while structure and order was indeed enforced in the OT, we still need to know what mercy, not sacrifice means as well in the OT (Hosea 6:6). However these church leaders were so blinded by their own selves, that they missed the greatest opportunity of their lives.

And that, is what I get from this verse. I don't want to miss a calling from Christ because I'm so wrapped up in my view of how things are, or what I think they should be. I don't want my temple in my life taking priority and making me miss a calling for something that is far greater. I feel Him calling me to greater things, and I don't want my tunnel vision to become so focused, even if I think I'm doing it for Christ, that I miss His next step He wants me to take.

Father, you know what is best for me. Continue to grant me the courage and strength I need to loosen my grip and control on my own agenda. I need to learn to trust You more than I trust myself. I need to learn to trust Your judgment, more than my natural reactions. Simply, I need you. Break me, mold me, fix me ... daily.

Something greater than the temple came indeed ...
~Matthew

Climbing That Mountain

2010-12-19T00:40:00.002-05:00

Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it. (Matthew 10:39 ESV)

As we approach the celebration of Christmas, it also means we are approaching the closing of another year. Though it is purely symbolic, certainly not something I treat legalistically, it's a good opportunity for me to take inventory, reflect on my growth, and stare at that mountain in front of me with confidence.

According to society I'm doing pretty well. I have a great job, get paid far more than I deserve, 2 degrees under my belt, have a happy and healthy family, surrounded by close friends, and have plenty of worldly "stuff" that I have accumulated through the years. However, if I were to measure my life based on these things, I suppose my goals would be to simply get more money, and more stuff, and hope that I can find the time to use that stuff.

Yet it never satisfies does it? That raise I got all too quickly changed from being a bonus, to what I need to balance the budget. That cool stuff I got most definitely lost the edge and flame of excitement. That awesome purchase just turned into more of my 'stuff'.

That's why I love His plan so much better. He calls us to be Holy, like Him. He knows we will never achieve that, but it's our journey and calling nonetheless. I don't look at this mountain of holiness as an insurmountable obstacle of frustration, I see opportunity, amazing opportunity. His "Stuff" we purchase through sacrifice continues to fill me.

He gives everything purpose; He fills every void; He gives life and joy beyond anything this world can give.

So I encourage you to take inventory in the next week or two along with me. Create some goals, that's what I'm going to be doing. Symbolic as it is, it's a wonderful opportunity to make a New Year's resolution for Him, which I guarantee will bless you more than you can imagine. I'm going to be looking to a familiar passage regarding the fruit of the Spirit, and praying about and finding opportunities to increase my fruit:

"But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law." (Galatians 5:22-23 ESV)

Pick a fruit, find your opportunity, and get climbing ... see you on His mountain!

~Matthew

Heading to Deeper Waters

2010-12-16T15:29:00.002-05:00

“And when you pray, do not heap up empty phrases as the Gentiles do, for they think that they will be heard for their many words.” (Matthew 6:7 ESV)

When I read the passage above it reminded me of how all too often I come to my eternal Father in prayer, and halfway through our dialog I can’t even remember what I’m talking to Him about. Being routine in prayer for the sake of making it a habit of conversing is wonderful, but being routine in the words we use is empty and shallow.

At times it is because I am struggling with trials in my life and I apparently think that I can manage them better than coming to Him. At times it is because I’m frustrated with individuals in my life or myself. Also there are times when it’s simply because I’m tired. Whatever the reason, He is not asking for us to check a box, but for us to share our heart. Yes He knows what we ask before we say it, but we need to talk to Him about it.

Imagine going to a counselor and telling him you worked it all out in your head but you just don’t want to talk about it. Do you think he can help you!? Do you really think it’s worked out!? This is for our benefit, not His. He knows and understands all. Our prayers need to be genuine and from the heart.

I’ve been much better at catching these shallow moments in my prayer life, but they still find me all too often. I have never (yes never) pulled myself away from what I was doing and opened my heart to God and walked away feeling like it was a waste of time. Every single time he has met me, and every single time I have been blessed. You think I would know this by now, but no, I still have to force myself at times to pull away from my ‘busy’ day and come to Him in prayer.

It bothers me how shallow I can be sometimes, but it delights me that I see it, and that He continues to call me to deeper waters …

Amazed,

~Matthew

(Be)at[t]itudes

2010-12-14T11:46:00.002-05:00

In Latin, the word 'beatitudes' is translated to 'blessings', which makes obvious sense concerning the context if you read Matthew 5:2-12. While the actual title "The Beatitudes" is not Scripture itself, but rather added for reader content, I never put much thought into what it actually translated to until now. To me, it was just a name, and regardless of the fact that it doesn't have anything to do with the translated word, 'attitude' always stuck out as a child in my head, and even as an adult.

Yet upon reading, I found that perhaps 'attitude' may in fact be appropriate as well. Of the blessings stated in The Beatitudes, some of them can indeed be intentional. First, here they are:

And he opened his mouth and taught them, saying:

“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

“Blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted.

“Blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth.

“Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they shall be satisfied.

“Blessed are the merciful, for they shall receive mercy.

“Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.

“Blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God.

“Blessed are those who are persecuted for righteousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

“Blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account. Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.

(Matthew 5:2-12 ESV)

We can learn to be meek (humble, patient and docile). We can strive to hunger and thirst for righteousness, not our own pleasures or motives. We can learn to be merciful, or even look to be more pure in heart. We can learn to be peacemakers, rather than those who cause and fuel conflict.

So while these beatitudes, or these blessings, are given to encourage and comfort us, they most definitely show that we should learn to "be" these "attitudes" that God calls us to be. It's work to change, but thankfully, I won't be running out of any work to do for a while! =)

Loving growth ...

Encouragement

2010-12-09T10:13:00.002-05:00

My mother is a gifted writer, and while often private about it, I figured since she wrote this poem and printed it along with the picture below for my son years ago, that I figured it was safe to share.

Sometimes in life – you have to take chances

You are fairly sure you know the way

You plan each careful step

You hang on to the belief that you will succeed

You give confidence and hope to others

But there will be times you will stand alone

And doubt will slow your pace

You will look behind you and question “why”

Fear is not a reason to stop

Look inside and trust the person that is in you

He will guide your way

You will succeed and others will follow.

- Karen Gasperoni

I love this picture. Not just the one seen above but the one that my mother paints in your head. This picture of confidence and leadership, all the while knowing that there will be doubt at times, that we will struggle at times, and even feel alone. However there are always eyes on us, always those looking to us (often silently) for direction; for someone to follow. This poem reminded me of a passage I read yesterday:

For thus says the One who is high and lifted up, who inhabits eternity, whose name is Holy: “I dwell in the high and holy place, and also with him who is of a contrite and lowly spirit, to revive the spirit of the lowly, and to revive the heart of the contrite. (Isaiah 57:15 ESV)

When we feel those moments of doubt, when we have those times of uncertainty, when our spirit is low and damaged, it’s His Spirit that resides with us. The Creator of the universe loves us personally and will be there to revive us from our struggles. What more encouragement do we need than that? This revival certainly doesn’t always happen on my time schedule, but that doesn’t mean He isn’t with me. I know that while I have times of being showered with blessings, there will be times that trials of life weigh me down. However His foundation is where I want to stand, and it’s in these times of peace, before the storms, that I need to continue to strengthen my stand on His foundation.

I thank my mother for her words of encouragement, and as a reminder that we all are leaders. Fear and doubt may try to stand in our way, but with Him, we will succeed; and best yet, others will follow!

for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. 2 Timothy 1:7 ESV)

Conflict Resolution

2010-12-03T12:07:00.004-05:00

We all have conflict in our lives. As children we had it when we were learning the difficult lessons of social issues, and as adults we have it thinking that we have successfully learned from those lessons as children! The conflict itself doesn’t go, it’s just the way that we deal with it that changes. We’re all different, and we often see things from a different perspective, and hence we inevitably will find conflict. As a child we get hurt, or someone hurts our feelings, and we react as such. As an adult we may learn to try and control our responses we had as a child, but we also find other harmful (I think more harmful) ways of dealing with conflict, such as suppression disguised as control; that is me.

In prayer today I was shown (well, reminded) of how much conflict I not only try to avoid and control of my own, but how much I try to be that ‘negotiator’ and control conflict for others. Perhaps it’s for a friend, co-worker, family, or child, but I have this natural instinct to want to resolve it. I think in many ways it can be helpful, but much like my own conflict, I often don’t try to resolve it, I try to suppress it. That’s when my anxiety sets in; it’s my resident thorn.

"So to keep me from becoming conceited because of the surpassing greatness of the revelations, a thorn was given me in the flesh, a messenger of Satan to harass me, to keep me from becoming conceited. Three times I pleaded with the Lord about this, that it should leave me. But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly of my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may rest upon me. For the sake of Christ, then, I am content with weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and calamities. For when I am weak, then I am strong." (2 Corinthians 12:7-10 ESV)

Like Paul, I have asked for this thorn to be removed, however it is this thorn that keeps reminding me that I have absolutely no control over this. That peace through all this doesn’t come from my ability to control, but from my ability to surrender. I prayerfully do my part, I prayerfully talk, listen, and encourage not only myself but others. I hope I can be a godly counsel to others when they come to me with conflict in their life, but ultimately it’s not my burden. My burden is to take up my cross, every day, and follow Him (Luke 9:23). That cross is not made up of baggage from others, or even myself, that’s for Him to carry.

Lord, please continue to remind me that Your peace comes from my surrender to You, not my handle or control on a situation. Encouraging and helping not only myself but others, while still knowing that You are sovereign and fully in control needs to be my focus. Conflict resolution doesn’t come through myself and my work, it comes through You.

~Matthew

Getting Uncomfortable

2010-11-11T13:04:00.003-05:00

As my friend recently said when referring to his life and how he’s living it, “I’m getting uncomfortable”; this is a good thing.

More often lately I can reflect that same feeling. Perhaps it’s wanting to do more, or perhaps it’s wanting to drop more of my baggage at the cross, or perhaps at times it’s getting frustrated with my very unbalanced ratio of the number of His words I read compared to the number of His words I act out. I too, am getting “uncomfortable”.

I know that I’ll be judged, and often times even more so by family and close friends who don’t share my faith (after all, the closer you are to someone, the more of their faults are seen). I’m far from perfect, I’ll gladly repeat that as many times as necessary, but yet it’s not from the judgment of others that I get my affirmation. I know the closer I step to Christ the more I will get weird looks, rolled eyes, and fingers pointed at me shouting “hypocrite”.

But that’s OK.

It’s more important that when people see me at work, they see 1 Peter 1:15, not just a Bible on my desk.

It’s more important that when people see my relationship with my wife, they truly see Ephesians 5:25, not just smiling faces.

It’s more important that when people see me at a party they see Romans 12:2 lived out in joy, not just someone who does things differently.

It’s more important that when I talk of my faith to others, I speak of it like 1 Peter 3:15, not like a judgmental religious person.

It’s more important for me to actually live out Matthew 28:19 than to volunteer in a few outreach activities a year.

It’s more important for me to think of my success in my career and my education as Paul does in Philippians 3:8 compared to Christ.

It’s more important for me to pray Proverbs 30:7-9 than to pray for things beyond what I truly need.

All I’m trying to say is that it’s more important for me to actually live out a handful of verses, than to be able to quote and cross-reference all of Scripture. My walk with the Lord is not a private thing; it needs to be seen in my life a lot more than it is now.

Getting uncomfortable,

~Matthew

I'm taller than you!

2010-09-29T12:20:00.002-04:00

It seems lately that He is really working on my humility. So often in culture it's all about being the greatest; knowing the most; having the greatest faith ... this is not a new issue.

"But they kept silent, for on the way they had argued with one another about who was the greatest." (Mark 9:34 ESV)

What is even more sad is that I think this issue becomes most heated with our own brothers and sisters. We can spend so much time arguing about translations, laws, interpretations, or views that aren't focused around leading others to Christ. Study them, great, we should, but the Great Commission wasn't asking us to limit our Christian life to church and Bible studies.

Question. Do you imagine yourself having a faith of equal standing with Peter? Not the amount of missions he went on, or the number of people that he brought to Christ, or the conviction of his speeches, but his faith. He is just a man, but like Paul, another wonderful example to us of someone who learned to let Christ shine through. I think in some ways, through Peter's struggles, we can relate, but we miss the point that his faith is our faith. He was/is no closer to God than you and I (as some of my RC friends gasp). He had a purpose, a job, a commission; but so do we. Theological differences aside, just think about this verse:

"Simeon Peter, a servant and apostle of Jesus Christ, To those who have obtained a faith of equal standing with ours by the righteousness of our God and Savior Jesus Christ" (2 Peter 1:1 ESV)

If you accept what Peter lays out here with Jesus Christ, you and I stand hand in hand following the one true King. Some of us may mentor, some of us may teach, some of us may need someone to pour into us, but our faith is the same. That is why I am no more saved today than I was years ago when I accepted Christ, regardless of how much deeper in love I feel.

You know what this picture reminds me of now? Not just my adorable son trying to be taller and perform a balancing act! It's a reminder to me that no matter where we are on our walk, Christ fills in the gap (places that log) to make sure that we're all on the same level.

Walking with other believers eye to eye ...

Continue to remind me of that Lord ...

Matthew

Baby Steps

2010-09-16T08:04:00.004-04:00

A friend of mine was telling me about an experience he had at a UofM football game. He was sitting a row behind the family section and was able to see another part of the game that is often missed and forgotten; the fact that these young players are just kids, sons, and siblings.

He watched as a senior took the field and the excitement of the family peaked; you see, he's been with the team all 4 years, but this was the first time he got to get on the field for a play. He, along with many others, may dress for games, be a part of the team, but rarely get a chance to step on the field and make a play.

This got me thinking about my relationship with Christ. As I spent some time in 1 Peter it's quickly obvious that Jesus isn't asking for baby steps:

but as he who called you is holy, you also be holy in all your conduct, since it is written, “You shall be holy, for I am holy.” (1 Peter 1:15-16 ESV)

If we've accepted Christ the way that we are taught in the Word, we are definitely part of His team; salvation is ours. However the joy that is experienced, both by us and those that love us and watch us, is maximized when we step on that field. Why do we (I) hold back so much? What are we afraid of?

for God gave us a spirit not of fear but of power and love and self-control. (2 Timothy 1:7 ESV)

The best part is, unlike the player I talked about above, our participation in the game is not limited to our talent, but simply our willingness to step on the field.

Father, give me the courage to give all of myself to you; not just when convenient. May I stop taking baby steps, and run all out towards you. Help me leave my junk behind that is slowing me down, and continue to remind me that my past doesn't matter, my failures are forgiven, and I'm Yours now. Yet I pray that I don't ever run alone; that along the way I grab the hands of those that are reaching out, yet too weak to stand. May I also grab the hands of those that may not even want to run with me and call me a fool ... they'll see ... they will. Amen.

Going long ... and I pray not alone.

~Matt

Why do I keep running?

2010-08-11T15:42:00.002-04:00

"Now the word of the LORD came to Jonah the son of Amittai, saying, “Arise, go to Nineveh, that great city, and call out against it, for their evil has come up before me.” But Jonah rose to flee to Tarshish from the presence of the LORD. He went down to Joppa and found a ship going to Tarshish. So he paid the fare and went on board, to go with them to Tarshish, away from the presence of the LORD." (Jonah 1:1-3 ESV)

I've read the story of Jonah many times but never truly saw myself in that story as I do now. After the past service at our church on Sunday, our pastor got me really thinking about what (or who) is the Nineveh in my life. Part of Jonah just wanted to see Nineveh punished, and didn’t want to give them a chance at redemption (made clear in later chapters), but also I see that Jonah had such a frustration and unbelief for Nineveh as he felt they wouldn't listen, let alone really change, so he hated the idea of wasting time and energy on them.

And that … is me.

There are people in my life whom I feel the same way about; from those that doubt the authenticity and/or authority of the Scripture, to those that all out profess Atheism. I’m not talking about those walking the streets and preaching to whom I don’t know, I’m speaking of those whom I have an established relationship with that I shut off the single Thing that could change their life, all because I don’t think they will ever change, or listen. I think to myself 'Why bother'? When conversation opens around others regarding my faith, I open up and freely share; but around them, I shut down in bitter frustration and almost anger, much like Jonah. 'Why do I waste my time' I ask to myself; 'their loss, not mine'.

How sad.

I feel Him calling me sometimes to witness to them, and all I want to do is get on a boat and head for some distant coast land to get away from the responsibility. It all comes down to whom I am looking to for affirmation; Christ, or the world?

Jesus, grant me the Grace to do Your Will. When I come to the edge of that dock, waiting to board for Tarshish, may I hear Your whisper; Your love. May I not conceal Your gift You gave me, but show it for all to see. Grant me the strength to open up, even to those whom I think will never see You, or Trust You. I’m not the judge, I’m just the messenger, and all too often the messenger who is deciding who to hand Your invitation to and whom not. May I seek Your affirmation only, and teach me how to love like you love … Amen

On Earth as it is in Heaven

2010-07-29T10:59:00.002-04:00

As I was reading through an article that Jon Bloom (from Bethlehem Baptist Church, MN) posted on the suffering/persecution of Christians around the world he said something that really struck me:

"But American Christians live in the most prosperous nation in world history and the one in which it costs the least to be a Christian. This environment can be deadly to faith. It allows false faith to masquerade as real very easily."

Does it make you feel a bit uneasy? I know it got me thinking. I wonder how I would stand in those situations? I hope to believe that I would let His strength support me (it's our choice to use that strength after all) but there is very little of me that would even consider wanting to be tested like that. I've learned that it's the fires that refine us, but defining a "good week" as being one that didn't include a beating because I profess His name is not one furnace I readily want to jump into.

However, reading last night (The Lazarus Life) I came across this passage and it somehow seems to fit my train of thought:

"[that you] may have strength to comprehend with all the saints what is the breadth and length and height and depth, and to know the love of Christ that surpasses knowledge, that you may be filled with all the fullness of God." (Ephesians 3:18-19 ESV)

There are a couple ways of looking at that passage, but for me, God's love for us is beyond our comprehension; it "surpasses our knowledge" of what we know. It is so beyond understanding that we can only accept It, or reject It.

However I wonder if my brothers and sisters who go to sleep at night with bruises on their bodies understand more of that love then I do here. I don't want bruises, I don't want to feel pain (or even see it), but I do want that relationship.

May I use my blessings, freedom, and protection that I have here to advance His Kingdom ... on earth, as it is in Heaven.

His
~Matthew ><>

At Peace in Chains - A Reflection

2010-07-28T12:56:00.003-04:00

A reflection from my journal entry on July 14, 2008

But as it is, they desire a better country, that is, a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared for them a city. (Hebrews 11:16 ESV)

Then: During that time in 2008 things in the economy were really hitting home at Ford. This passage got me thinking about how while I should be thankful for my blessings here, my ultimate home is with Jesus.

When I think now about this "desire" that is spoke of, it reminds me of another passage I read yesterday

And behold, an angel of the Lord stood next to him, and a light shone in the cell. He struck Peter on the side and woke him, saying, “Get up quickly.” And the chains fell off his hands. (Acts 12:7 ESV)

What struck me about that was when it was brought to my attention that Peter is in jail (again) because Herod (Herod Agrippa I) had just killed John's brother James and because this "pleased the Jews" Peter was also arrested. He was very likely about to be executed as well. So here he is in jail ...

SLEEPING! Yes, the angel had to wake him up!

Could you sleep? I couldn't! Here he is sitting in chains, waiting to be executed, so he decides to take a nap.

I wonder if it is because his desire, while it is understood he wanted to spread the Gospel, was not of this earth. He knew that God was in control, and that a place was being prepared for him. He truly was at peace in chains.

May we desire a better country; His. And when those chains get fastened around our wrists and ankles, may we find His peace, relax, and wait for when we are called, and watch the chains hit the ground.

His,
~Matthew

Getting Upside Down!

2010-07-21T14:28:00.002-04:00

I think I've been getting upside down again for a while; spending time in His Word more for information, than for transformation.

Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect. (Romans 12:2 ESV)

I'm not suggesting there is anything wrong in reading Scripture for information, but it's wrong when I stop reflecting on that information that I've read. As I continue to read through 1 Kings, I am about to come to a point when King Solomon walks away from God. It's heartbreaking, truly, to see such a great king who was blessed with so much, raise his hands and praise God for all he has and speak beautiful words, only to know his upcoming choices.

1 Kings 8 captures blessings, prayers of dedication, a benediction, and even an amazing amount of offerings to the Lord; yet the promise and warning that begins in chapter 9 is seemingly forgotten by Solomon. It's a reminder for me how quick we can backslide and how easily we get caught up in our own self.

I'm so task oriented, and in many ways that can be a blessing. However, in some ways, like reading His Word, it can get me checking a box that I read something rather than letting Him work on me. Whether it be prayer, Scripture, or a teaching, I need to start taking more time reflecting again.

that he may incline our hearts to him, to walk in all his ways and to keep his commandments, his statutes, and his rules, which he commanded our fathers. (1 Kings 8:58 ESV)

Thank You for continuing to incline my heart to You, and may I get rightside up again! :)

His,
~Matthew

Great Expectations

2010-06-24T15:56:00.002-04:00

Don't you love those moments of positive expectation? Those moments where you have either been looking forward to them for a while, or those jewels of positive thoughts amidst tribulation? I have found myself trying to live in those moments more, enjoying my gift without letting outside forces pull me down. I am certainly not always successful! Most of my issues seem to stem from me wanting to control the situation, rather than doing my part and then giving it up to Him.

I've heard someone say that prayer without expectation is just unbelief in disguise. I think it's quite natural for us to feel that the picture is so big that my little problem isn't worth divine intervention, but we're not asked to think that way at all.

"But as for me, I will look to the Lord; I will wait for the God of my salvation; my God will hear me." Micah 7:7 (ESV)

The confidence in Micah is a goal for where I want to be at in my journey; sitting there, amidst a mess, knowing in my heart that He 'will' hear me.

Father help me to slow down, speak less, and listen more. Help me expect your blessings, support, and guidance with as much eagerness as a child has as he sees candles being lit for him on a cake!

Your baby boy,
~Matthew

Picking Favorites

2010-06-10T11:46:00.002-04:00

I was recently reminded of something that truly sickens me. I was interacting with a group of people on facebook and decided to browse an individual’s profile info as we were not friends and didn't know much about them. They professed Christ as their Lord, while at the same time belong to a group who is "praying" for the death of our current president. I've been disturbed by some things this administration has done, some greater than others, but I can never imagine myself professing Christ, Who "is" love, and using Him to ask for the death of a leader.

"First of all, then, I urge that supplications, prayers, intercessions, and thanksgivings be made for all people, for kings and all who are in high positions, that we may lead a peaceful and quiet life, godly and dignified in every way. This is good, and it is pleasing in the sight of God our Savior, who desires all people to be saved and to come to the knowledge of the truth." 1 Timothy 2:1-4 (ESV)

He wants "all" to be saved and come to the knowledge of the truth, not whom "we" want to save. Little too much like wanting to play God if you ask me. If it is His will that a leader of a school, business, state, government is removed then it will happen. The fact that the individual isn't removed isn't a stamp of approval either. However praying for godly leaders to rise up and replace others is one thing, but for their death? No.

I can't recall whom to give credit for the quote but it states that "I haven't locked eyes with a person yet who doesn't matter to God". May we pray for our leaders, pray for our families, pray for our neighbors, especially if they don't know the Truth so that they may come to the knowledge of the Truth. Let's not pick favorites ... He doesn't ... unless it's Sports, because we all know He likes Detroit teams the best ... just look how He has blessed the Lions! :)

The Root of the Issue

2010-06-08T14:18:00.002-04:00

So I was gardening the other day, and after I was done I decided to weed a bit in my yard. So where do I start? The easiest place possible of course! I started pulling some weeds in the cobblestone that surrounds my back deck. Oh how I wish all weeds were so easy to pluck!

"Other seeds fell on rocky ground, where they did not have much soil, and immediately they sprang up, since they had no depth of soil, but when the sun rose they were scorched. And since they had no root, they withered away." Matthew 13:5-6 (ESV)

Makes me wonder sometimes how deep my roots are anchored; or rather when the seeds are falling, where am I planting them within me? Have I let Him till the hardened fallow ground of my heart so when the seeds fall, they can take root?

The picture that I took isn't even a weed; it's a fallen maple seed that quickly took root but was the easiest of them to pluck. However it also reminds me of that Dawn Redwood I have growing in my front lawn. Bought as a tiny sapling, cared for, watered, and almost miraculously avoiding the path of the lawn mower week after week. Now? Oh it's still young ... but already strong! Its roots run deep; real deep. No fear of the lawnmower, no fear of the feet of playing children, no fear of being plucked. It's not finished growing, but it has the foundation it needs for a beautiful life.

Dash Seventeen

2010-06-08T13:48:00.004-04:00

As I approached an old spot to pray the other day; a quiet, secluded, seldom travelled spot; I remembered how I etched in the dusty window “John 3:16” many months ago. It’s always great to reflect on such a foundational verse from time to time. Often I can get trapped in the study, history, and theology, of His Word and start to lose the purity of such a verse that highlights His love for us in such a basic way. However it was then that I sat down did I notice something about that etched writing … it was added to; not by me. Simply “-17” was added to the end of my writing which now read “John 3:16-17”.

"For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him." John 3:17 (ESV)

When I read this verse it is a wonderful reminder that while He certainly came to draw a line in the sand (Luke 12:51), His purpose was not to condemn, but rather He came bringing gifts freely offered to any who accept.

He didn’t lock the gates restricting anyone from coming to Him; He opened them.

Plenty of Room to Merge!

2010-05-26T23:17:00.002-04:00

The problem I have with being "saved by Grace" is that it is very misleading, at least the way we use that term it is. While salvation certainly begins there, it is not Grace itself that puts us on the "narrow road"; it's Grace that allows us to make our way to that road. It's like a (free) boarding pass, if you don't accept the pass, you aren't going very far. However, if you have the pass but don't get on the train, you ain't goin' anywhere either!

Granted, it's not about how fast you're going on the road, what you look like, what vehicle you're using, how often you pull over with a flat, all that matters is you're on the road, and moving; at least moving over the course of your lifelong journey.

"For the grace of God has appeared, bringing salvation for all people, training us to renounce ungodliness and worldly passions, and to live self-controlled, upright, and godly lives in the present age" Titus 2:11-12 (ESV)

When I read that verse today at lunch it reminded me of just that. Grace is given for salvation, but it doesn't end there. It's used to train us to "renounce" our previous methods. It is what gives us the opportunity to renounce them; what gives us the opportunity to board that train, make a choice, and get on the road; even while others laugh at your course of action (that's why the road is narrow).

Also in that verse, the King James version uses the word lust (wordly lusts) rather than passion (wordly passions) as ESV/NIV does. Out of curiosity I looked it up and the Greek word being translated is "epithymia", which means passion, lust, or another definition that I really like is "what is forbidden". That dark cloud of forbidden passion that lures us in, promises us everything, but only gives short term extacy and leaves us with long term pain.

It's that pain that He wants us to avoid, and His Grace was given to train us to avoid just that. It's the pass that allows us to travel that narrow road ... that leads to Him ... waving your pass of Grace while traveling on the wide road will still only lead you to where that wide road is headed ...

“Strive to enter through the narrow door. For many, I tell you, will seek to enter and will not be able." Luke 13:24 (ESV)

"Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it." Matthew 7:13 (NIV)

It may be narrow, but there is always enough room for merging! It's guaranteed! =)

Honking (cuz I love Jesus)
~Matthew

Building for Earthquakes

2010-05-19T12:32:00.003-04:00

A building that is made to (try and) withstand earthquakes is not build with rigid stability, but rather flexible design; structurally soft if you will, not iron clad. I was reminded of that today during prayer as I read this passage:

“And I will give you a new heart, and a new spirit I will put within you. And I will remove the heart of stone from your flesh and give you a heart of flesh.” Ezekiel 36:26 (ESV)

You can call it a struggle, or you can call it a blessing, but stress often triggers heart palpitations for me. A struggle in the obvious ways that it gets scary or distracting (more distracting lately as I’ve been dealing with them for years so most of the scare is gone), but a blessing in a way that it most definitely is a sign to me that I am struggling with something, or not dealing with something properly. However after this passage (once I’ve read many times) it’s clear to me that I most definitely still have a heart of stone in many respects. Something major, or even something simple can trigger my internal earthquakes. The more I’m connected to Him, the softer my heart is and the better I deal with my internal earthquakes. However the more life seems to get me derailed (business, life issues, etc.) the more I try to do things on my own and my heart starts hardening up again. Then even the little tremors can set off some fractures in my heart.

Yet …

When I see I’ve made some wrong turns, and find my way back to Him, that heart of flesh is there waiting for me. My life didn’t suddenly become less busy, my issues didn’t suddenly disappear … it’s just because I was able to give more to Him so that He can carry those burdens for me.

It’s crazy that I still stray more often than I want to admit, and still try to do things on my own … I know the routine … I know the peace that comes with Him … I know the joy … and my prayer is that I continue to learn from my mistakes, and will be lured away from Him less and less.

Feeling my heart soften …

~Matthew

Skating with Him

2010-05-05T12:54:00.002-04:00

As I was rollerskating with my family (and friends) this past Saturday, it occurred to me that it's much like my journey with Christ. You see, the devil is trying to keep me off the rink, saying things like "don't do that", "you can't do that", "don't you enjoy yourself", "worry about this", etc.

All the while, Jesus is just skating around on the track. Waiting for me to join Him.

When I do, I grab his arm and we have the most amazing time! I don't need to get off the track, in fact I can stay on there forever. The best part is that the enemy can't get "on" the track, he is restricted.

Christ keeps him away; he's just a spectator, with so many others.

It's when I take those breaks, sit down for a minute, have a breather, that he's all over me again. Clawing at me to stay off the track and remain in the crowd. The reality is that he's scared of what happens if I get back on the track ...

The better that I get to know Him, the more joy that fills my life. The better I get at skating, the more fun it becomes. After all, in the beginning it was work. Often seemed like something I had to do, out of obedience. I needed to learn how to skate. There were times I fell, and I felt arms picking me up, it must have been Him right? Anyway ...

Then He begins showing me more skills, tricks, ways to dance, and celebrate while I'm out there with Him. The better I get, the less breathers I end up taking. I just want to "get back out there". I want to stay on the track; I don't want to get off.

What a beautiful picture that the devil has to wait outside the track to get me. After all, in the presence of Christ there is no fear, no enemy.

I see myself smiling more, and my struggles seem to be less impactful. In multiple areas of my life I have found the desire to once and for all say "I'm done". I can't waste my day, this gift from Him, thinking about that garbage. After all, it's just too much fun to be skating!

Then it gets even more fun!

Perhaps every once in a while I'll get the privilege to see someone from outside the rink look at us skating together, with that unsure look on their face that I wore for so long. Perhaps I can see them finally tear themselves away from the claws of the enemy (invisible to them) and get on the track for the first time.

Oh look at that smile! I told you it was fun!

Oh no! They fell down! (It sure does hurt sometimes let me tell you)

I see Him look at me and give me a nod; He wants me to help them up.

"Me?"

What a responsibility; what a privilege!

May we all learn to skate with Him, and may we all learn to help those who fall trying.

I hope to see you on the rink,
~Matthew

Weapons Training

2010-04-28T15:32:00.027-04:00

Sometimes a great group discussion can be beneficial not just for the group, but for yourself. As I was talking through an issue recently, something I said really hit home and became more understood then ever before. It's a simple truth, but powerful to really ponder even if you understand the basic theology behind it.

God likes to show us many times how the logic of this world is opposite of the logic of His Kingdom. I shared how as Christians we understand that true power doesn't come through might, but rather full submission to Him. We become the most powerful and bring Him the most glory when we lay our life down at the foot of the cross. Not something the world will parallel in our life here.

We can parallel that with the Holy Spirit, and His power, and how I need to understand that in the same way. While the Spirit dwells within me, I don't "use the Holy Spirit" against the enemy ... the Holy Spirit "uses me".

We are the tool, not Him. We are most powerful when we come the Spirit in prayer, and let Him lead us as we lay ourself down. "That" is when we can be moved. "That" is when He makes a difference. "That" is how He changes the world.

When we understand that ... and submit ... we become a formidable weapon! Just don't forget Who's actually doing the damage. Pride gets in the way.

Holy Spirit, use me!

~Matthew