Saturday, December 10, 2011

Playing for Him


In the last few days I've been through some difficult trials as well as some beautiful moments. From marriage, to parenting, to family, to friendships, to my own journey, it's been an action packed week. I've heard words of tragedy, and I've had times of complete peace. I've had some amazing times, and I've had some amazing trials. The thought of going through a week like I went through in the way I used to handle it boggles my mind.

I've tried life on own. I've tried to poke holes in the Bible, doubt the Resurrection, roll my eyes at a fairy-tale faith that some claimed as "Truth", and took care of things on my own. It worked out pretty well actually. School, career, money, friends, etc. Yet I never felt so empty. I of course didn't choose to really look at that aspect of my life (or even look like it on the outside). After all, on paper I was doing pretty good. It was those quiet times that got to me ... those times I had to myself when all the stuff I was doing was done for the night, and it was just me ... and silence. Anyway, I digress ...

Playing for Rebekah this morning was just another one of those moments where I feel His hand on me. It's impossible to explain unless you experience it yourself but I'm talking about something far beyond peace, or affirmation, or even love. To journey with the Lord in my life takes a beautiful moment, and makes it glorifying. To experience those times when I look at my wife, or child, with not eyes of a loving husband or father, but through His eyes, is life changing.

I often recall how my body is a Temple of the Holy Spirit (when meditating on what that means and how I should treat it). However, to stop there is awfully selfish. I need to look onto others that way too. When you look at your spouse, do you see a Temple of the Holy Spirit? You should.
"Or do you not know that your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit within you, whom you have from God? You are not your own, for you were bought with a price. So glorify God in your body. (1 Corinthians 6:19-20 ESV)"
So when I was playing for Rebekah this morning, I wasn't just playing for her, I was playing for Him. It's this type of relationship that helps me get through those crazy moments, and enjoy the beautiful ones even that much more.

Peace to you through Christ on this most beautiful season,
~Matthew

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

Food Processing



I've really been struggling as of late to get back into my routine that I love so much. Primarily I speak of running and blogging. I wouldn't say I'm in a spiritual desert, not at all. However I sometimes feel like He's blowing His Words into me like I blow into an empty bottle. There's air in there, but it's not going anywhere! Running keeps my physically healthy, and writing keeps me moving along His path spiritually.

Everyone needs to process their learning somehow, and for me, it's when I write. And as much as I finish my plate, or fill it with healthy choices, I need more than food to fill me up.
"And he humbled you and let you hunger and fed you with manna, which you did not know, nor did your fathers know, that he might make you know that man does not live by bread alone, but man lives by every word that comes from the mouth of the LORD." (Deuteronomy 8:3 ESV)
OK, I'm going to get a little weird here but it's what I do best. You eat, you digest, and it pumps nutrients through your body as it goes through your system, right? (I'm leaving out the last part!) Well I feel full right now, and not just physically full. However I haven't really taken much time at all to digest all of this, and it's not doing me any good. I've learned some amazing things, shared some amazing times with friends, continue to stay in the Word and discuss stuff with the family, tended to my marriage, as well as had some stumbles (no big surprise there). However I haven't processed it as much as I want, and writing this all down really helps me. I love capturing in words my successes and failures; it helps me tremendously!

Recently, I put aside some "stuff" in my life that has been getting in the way of all this and look forward to balancing a bit more. I'm excited to see what He helps me process!

Thus I encourage you too, that even though this is a busy time of the year, spend some time processing yourself. Some can do it best with a friend, some need silence, and some write! However, don't let life get so busy that you don't have a chance to think about it all. Every day we write a check (in the amount of 24 hours of life) to what we give our time. Some of those purchases are beautiful, and we should think and enjoy those moments! Some are tragic, and we may need someone to come along side us to help cash those moments out. Whatever the case, I pray you find Him in each one.

His,
~Matthew
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